The streets sparkle like silver
now that the rain has changed into snow
I could see a dazzling future the color of a dream
that Christmas Day
I looked at you and smiled
on that holy night,
yet your tears overflowed
"I'll love you forever..." So why?
Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I look up at the distant sky
Someone new is waiting for me,
but I still harbor those feelings that I can't shake
We used to laugh together back then;
we weren't afraid of anything
But I hurt your gentle spirit
that Christmas Day
Now I'm wandering aimlessly,
searching for those hopes and dreams
The sky I gaze up at
is too big for me to grasp
even if I were able to reach it So Why?
Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I'll take the unwavering feelings of that time
and go forth into a new tomorrow,
because we can't go back to that story
As I keep on walking, I can't help but wonder
as the snowflakes melt in my outstretched hand
if maybe someday we'll meet again
and finally be able to tell each other how we really feel
little miss.
Melina Eng, Lyna or Mel for short.
I breathed my first on 29th July 1993.
Some know me as Little Miss Random,
or the lil emo kid IMMA HAPPY GIRL RIGHT NOW!
Currently studying my forth year in CHIJ Secondary (Toa Payoh)
So here's my life, in bold, italics, and underline.
and she loves photography;
and she loves reading;
and she loves shopping;
and she loves exercising;
and she loves fishing;
and she loves doing her nails;
and she loves hanging out with her friends and family;
and she loves her friends and family;
but most of all, she loves God 'cause He is her mighty saviour :D
There are more to come, but almost all of them can be bought from Forever21 online.
If you get any of these for me anytime soon(cause some of them are final sales), I'll love you even more!
▪ Camera (Any suggestions?)
▪ New Phone(iphone 4)
▪ Headphones!(my earpieces are seriously dying)
▪ Belted Shoulder Bag
▪ Watch
▪ Belts of varying thickness
▪ Black and green jacket/hoodie pullover
▪ Painter's Skinny Jeans
▪ Gently Faded Skinny Jeans
▪ Creased and Frayed Skinny jeans
▪ Decorative Fishnets
▪ Heels
▪ Flats
▪ Put GOD first in my life
▪ Be the salt and the light of the world
▪ Do QT daily
▪ Play the keyboard better
▪ Learn how to play the awesomely rocking Bass and the totally slammin' drums
▪ Run every weekday and GET THOSE SKINNY LEGS ASAP
▪ Attend prayer meetings
▪ Meet my (RL)fandoms!
♥Listening to: the tele ♥Mood: tired ♥Location: in the hall
"You're so awfully small to be so hugely irritating." said I, and Via just tossed a 'whatever' look at me. We both laughed. It was always fun going out with her. Pictures are on Facebook, as usual. Feeling a little somnolent now, after a day of shopping in heels which resulted with a blister, bubble, whatever it is called on one of my toes. Although getting a daily dose of fandom(2PM bias) kept me in an ebullient mood, it did take a toll on me after. After, being now. The headache's coming in, leaving my head throbbing in pain. That's the sign to turn in, but not without some reading. I find solace in one of my favourite past time, with music evoking different emotions to suit the story. Promise me you won't laugh when I say that I'm reading the Twilight Saga again, it's just that addictive. YOU PROMISED NOT TO LAUGH. The fic that I'm writing will have to be put on hold for now. With the ideas in my head and part of the story in the Drafts, it should make it's first chapter into the comm soon enough.
Cheers, might or might not be on hiatus from tomorrow onwards. Homework will be the death of me.
No Kame picture of the typical LJ stuff. Just a normal entry cause I'm feeling a little off now. Enjoy the following three videos, my current craze these days.
♥Listening to: Heartbeat, 2PM ♥Mood: tired ♥Location: in the hall, home alone
Today. I think I played _____(insert your thoughts here) today. The transitions, the wrong chords, the missing chords, Matthew singing the song quietly to aid me during the solos when I got lost...
Anyhoo, it was a tiring day with 2PM's Heartbeat on repeat(hey, that rhymes!). MEL IS GOING TO MASTER THAT DANCE. Cause it's just so awesomely epic. Not only that one, but many others too. Thank you, Jolynna for the lovely gift.
Yan came for the Christmas event yesterday from dinner onwards! Thank you for taking time out of your busy and tiring schedule for me. Hope you had a nice rest! By the way, is there something wrong with blogger? The tagboards can't seem to work. My mind refuse to function properly now, guess I'm too tired but if I sleep not then there won't be enough time for my daily dose of fandom and doing up Yan's and Halley's present.
Cheers, time to get started.
P.S. (Here's the Primadonna talking) Oh Won Bin, ex F.T. Island member needs love(hence he's my entry picture for today). He has been removed from all the F.T. Island comms on LJ and there's no other comms specifically just for him. Hopefully he releases something as a solo artist soon. ♥
Hokkaido, Japan. 18th, 19th and 20th December 2009; Got to get that[ 1:53 AM ]
boom, boom, boom.
♥Listening to: Prologue, Beauty and the Beast OST ♥Mood: tired ♥Location: in the hall, home alone
The hotel was horrible. The alarm didn't wake me up. I'm not sure if it even rang. I mean, if normal alarms can get me up and going, why not this one? So, this post was originally written in point form of the places, so it's up to my memory to do the rest. While waiting for oppa to come down with the breakfast coupon(he is such a girl sometimes. Shhh!) I saw thia mini display turtle with a shell decorated with red diamons! Aka Kame! AKAME! <3 My fangirl side was squealing with joy. Again they forced me to eat up and we were the last people to arrive. First up was the Old village thing, where people donated old houses from that time and preserved it. We took loads of pictures, and some of the insides of the houses reminded me of Onimusha. Honest! The pictures will be up....tomorrow. There was also this playground with a swing and seesaw, basic stuff. While swinging high, it reminded me of that time in Australia. It was my first time swinging so high without any help, much thanks to Rachel who taught me during the retreat in June. I had fun pushing unnie since she couldn't get high enough. (:
It was time to get back to the second building on the map, to see the family of ultra man. HAHA. Anyways, they changed the exhibit and it was empty like nothing. ): Unnie was buying a drink and when she dropped 10 yen, the Japanese students picked it up and didnt even say anything. Watshi okane(which means my money in Japanese)! D<
Next up was the Zoo! :D I forgot how long ti took to get there, but it wasn't that long. We had to walk a long way from the east gate entrance to the penguin area where they are doing their exercise. They do it twice a year and it's a really popular attraction among the locals. They look so adorable and this little toddler, Sakura-chan was also adorable. She almost fell but her okasan picked her up in time. (: Umma and I were just cooing Sakura-chan until they bid farewell.
We went to look at many other animals too but first was the other species of penguins, then we sort of split up. We were sort of lost when trying to find our way to see the wolves but we found our way there anyways. On our way there, we passed the leopard cage, the panther and the grizzly. OH! The grizzly was just too cute. It was so cold that even the grizzly was pawing the door to get out of the cold. <3 When we got to the wolves, the viewing area was just so awesome. It was only when I heard the two guys near us excalimed, "Suge!" did I turn my head around and was shocked by what I saw. The white wolf was just inches away form my face, of course, I was behind the transparent glass. Oppa was still trying to find the wolves until I hit him on the arm who knows how many times before he turned around and caught the wolf walking away.
I hightailed out of the place as soon as the wolves went out of sight, hoping to catch them at the other side, which I did. I got insanely cool shots of them too. The white one smiled at me! It was so adorable. I smiled and waved back too, of course. The wolves then became very panicky and started pacing around when they heard the clock chime. It was then when the photo taking got hard. They must have been worried or afarid of something, or they were just mocking me when I was stupidly following them to get a good shot. The black wolf reminded me of Sam Uely(however you spell his surname) though. The eyes were like Jacob's. Went to see the white foxes later and the lazy polar bear next. Unnie and I laughed at it's laziness. It was so cold that our toes were freezing and hurting from the cold. In a desperate attempt to get warm, I bought hot chocolate for 120 yen. It was tasty, but not toasty. The six of us rushed back to the visitor's center where it was nice and warm. Got a couple more shots of the beautiful sunset and chatted with Yan and Peichuan.
After was the Snow museum, a lot more pictures and umma and I grumbled about appa, being a little annoying when he refused to take picures when the battery was low. So what if the battery was dying? It was almost the last stop. All of us were amazed by the different tyoes of snow flakes they are, amazed by God's creation. How great is our God! There was this room that looked like something out of Final Fantasy where they had pictures of all the different ypes of snow flakes. Beautiful.
Next was shopping again, since it was too early for dinner. Guess what? :D NEWS was advertising this perfume brand and I saw their little ad! Like, paper ad. <3 Precious Rose, if I'm not wrong. It was their anniversary. Adorable. The mall had like what, gap which was on 50% off for the WHOLE ENTIRE FRIGGIN' STORE! :D Unnie did all the shopping since I wasn't that interested in long sleeves(not until now that is). :/ We were late again, but thankfully after slpitting up with the boys midway, we met again on the escalator down. CK got a good saying from unnie. ^^' At least she bought a top from there. Next up was dinner, but before that was taking a brief look at the 30+ story watch tower where you can see the whole nightview. The guys had it better, as they got to see the view in their toilets too while the girls just had the normal cubicals. Dinner was delish ramen, where they greet you oh-so-enthusiastically when you enter and leave. One of the waiter is such a cutie, seriously. I wanted to ask if I can take a picture with him but...no guts. Heh. Okay, so the bullet for dinner says Dinner: Ramen <3 + fish :/ + pork :D + rice but I have no idea what led to the fish, pork and rice.
The outside of the hotel was cold, negative seven degrees celcius. The hotel was horrible, such a small room. Oppa and I had to tag team to lift the table with the tele so that there was enough space for his luggage. For the first time, there was no CNN, no English channels. ): There wasn't a hair dryer either, so we couldn't wet our hair when we showered. At least there was a nice Japanese movie to watch. Sure, I couldn't understand much but there wasn't a need to. Japanese has this ablity to capture the emotion and all that and make it understandable to one who doesn't understand Japanese. It was such a touching story about a dog named Mani and a family whose old house got destroyed in an earthquake. The rescuers saved everyone but the dogs(it was a small family!) and the girl was crying so bad which made me wanted to cry too. Mani just kept running after the helicopter but it was impossible to catch up with her. Mani had to live alone without any shelter from the crows that pecked it's child and the cold rain. Well, Mani did find shelter for the rain and a quilt to keep the pups warm. Long story short, they came back for Mani and the family was reunited again. Happy ending, as always.
P.S. Heat packs work when it's not suppose to, freezes when it needs to.
P.P.S. I wrote Kame(in Hiragana) <3 and part of the White Christmas lyrics on the window and hotel toilet(the mirror got foggy after shower) Also I wrote aishiteru, Kame(in Hiragana) <3 on the window and on the wooden seesaw in snow! <3 SPREAD THE AKAME.
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I can't remember much, but I remember anything on 19th since I was too tired to write, much less do QT but on the 20th, we had to wake up at 5am, leave for the airport at 540am and have a mini breakfast on the bus. We had a delish lunch and had to run for our flight. At the check in point, it was so embarassing. We cut the whole queque and the Japanese couple behind me kept asking why and what are they doing to themselves. ): If only I knew how to converse in Japanese then I would have explained it to them. We made in in time, with unnie and I doing a lot of running in heels. The flight back was awesome! Who knew Yan was into Japanese and Korean pop too? :D We chatted throughout the whole flight back home(five hours!) and I ignored the pain in my ears. It was just so great to find a fellow fan. (: Yan and I were gradually getting jetlag on our way to collect the luggage. We were chatting about all the bands we knew, intorducing bands to each other and playing games on her itouch. TAP TAP, TAP TAP REVENGE! :D We took a group picture before separating and headed back home in a taxi after the rest of my family were done buying what they needed for their friends and themselves.
Hokkaido, Japan. 17th December 2009; It's 4am and I'm waking up to your perfume[ 12:44 AM ]
don't get up I'll get through on my own.
♥Listening to: 너에게 미쳤었다, 2pm. ♥Mood: tired ♥Location: in the hall, home alone
Imma going to rush through this, since it's a day late(meaning I wrote it on the 18th). ): Got mad at appa last night and I'm not going to talk about it. It does have a nice ring to it though. Whatev, I like how it sounds. I gots an unlucky touch! It's out first Western breakfast today, not too bad. The bedside table alarm clock is amazingly cool. How I wish Singapore had such things, or sold such things. Their toilet bowls are awesomely cool too. It heats up! :d Anyways, the Hokkaido milk is tasty. I just saw the advertisment last morning and wanted to taste it and I finally did. We went to two places. I forgot what was the first place and oppa forgot too but the second place was the so called antique street where they sold coffee with the Hello Kitty cup for 480 yen, the six flavour ice cream for 500 yen, with the snowman on top would be for 850 yen and the mix flavour for 380 yen, five flavours.
We took a couple of pictures and went to the shop that sold musical boxes. Really expensive musical boxes. There was the organ, so called fairground organ where in the olden times themepark, the sounds were usually created by the large organ over yonder. After that, while unnie and her boyfriend went to look for a nice musical box, appa and the rest of us went to Uniqlo and did some shopping! I got a grey zip-up hoodie and a nice pair of jeans. :D The people there or rather, anywhere has exellent service! :D Dinner was near some lake, while we took pictures at freagin' negative four degrees celcius. We had a wonderful snowball fight after in the heavy snow, like really heavy snow! O: CK and I threw snow and snowballs into the lake before the fight began.
As we got near the restaruant, unnie threw a 'snowball' the size of an A4 size paper at CK. It was hilarious. Also, she realised that her scarf was missing only when she stepped into the BBQ restaraunt. CK found it at the place where she picked up a snowball *points at the sketchbook* ye big. Dinner was just too fishy, no pun intended. Cooked salmon fish especially and before we even started, we complained about the little amount of food given, and that they should have given more fish. LUCKILY, they didn't. We all got sick of fish when the last thing to finish was fish. D<
The hotel was nearby, and the rooms were huge. Had a nice soak in the tub before sleeping. We went to the 100 yen shop and bought things. Unnie stocked up on a lot of Stitch things.
Hokkaido, Japan. 16th December 2009; Winter Wonderland[ 11:18 PM ]
Can you feel the mountains tremble.
♥Listening to: Heartbeat, 2pm. ♥Mood: tired ♥Location: in the hall, home alone
(Just to let you know, the first part was written during the morning, and the rest written after part of the White Christmas lyrics by KAT-TUN at nine plus ten ten to eleven.)
Ohaiyo minna-san!
Guess who I saw on the tele? Miura Haruma! :D The guy who acts as Yamato's buddy in Gokusen 3! He was advertising some hairspray. Though he only appeared for a mere two to three seconds or so, HE WAS STILL THERE! :D Ah, Kotaro Seishiro-kun kawaii desu ne! He was being interviewed for some upcoming movie and sneezed half way while answering the question! <3 Oh and it's SNOWING! Ima yuki ga maichiru~
Even though I had more than enugh time in the morning to wash up and etc, big brother woke up late and with my parents forcing me to finish just about everything, we were once again the last group to get up the bus. While waiting for my parents and brother to come down for breakfast, it started snowing again! :D Unnie got so excited and bounced on her seat a couple of times before running up to the window near her. Kawaii. Our first stop was at some mountain, where endless amount of sulfur dioxide spewed out into the atmosphere. No life can be found really near it, hence it's like a mini 'the end of the world'. The snow last night was so heavy that we could finally have a snowball fight! the way u the observation point was so slippery, so much that most of us slipped but had the wooden handrail for support(and the kind Japanese people). O: Took a tonne of pictures while appa went back to look for umma's snow cap at the hotel. We went to another sulfur mountain and IT WAS SNOWING! :D It was freezing cold too, as we were so high up the mountain. The shoe thing came off while we were having too much fun with our snowball fight.
While walking to our lunching place, they were playing a DongBang song! :D I think it's from the Secret Code album, idk. I've listen to so many of their songs that I forgot what was what. ^^' Appa gave a couple of stares before I snapped out of my fangirl mode. Lunch was delish, but I couldn't finish the udon. It was either the udon or the vegge. Vegge owns, duh. It was another two hours to our next destination, and there was so much snowing. It was on and off though, like it snowed at one part and gradually stop, then after a little sunshine it got cloudly and started snowing again. A winter wonderland! <3 I woke up an hour later after losing the feeling on my right leg. After several failed attempts to fall alseep, I ended up fiddling with the seat belt. Out of the blue, the lady in front told me to look outside and I was awestrucked. Appa was asleep so there was no way to capture such a beautiful scenary. Darn. At least unnie managed to wake up at took some photos. By the time my parents woke up, they missed ost of it.
When we finally got to the place that was all about seaweed, it was still snowing. :D And cold. After tasting all the freebies-I <3 the ice cream-we had another snowball fight? Thanks to all the snowing, there were huge chunks of snow. *insert evil laughter here* Our 'snowballs' could go up to around the size of an A5 paper. :D I got totally snowed, thanks a lot unnie. But it was fun! Another forty minutes to the next destination and by that time, it was already dark and slippery. ): The mini mall-ish place had about five to six main shops. The ramen stall, the bakery, the wooden toys store, the whale *ahem donghae ahem* store, the glass antique store and the bear museum. The bear museum had musical boxes that went up to 160+ thousand Singapore dollars. D: The glass antique store had mirrors that went up to thirty over Singapore dollars. ):
There were pretty mirrors with a clock in it! Aww, but it was so costly. Another snowball fight started by the slippery floor on the way to and out of the seafood market and the chocolate store. Big brother asked me to hold his mochi while he hurled a snowball mercilessly at me. We had a couple of hits each and on his last throw, it hit smack at my face, in my poor eyes. My sister and I had a snowball fight too. While we were fascinated by the snow caught on the leaves, she threw a huge handful of snow at me while I was still oh-so-fascinated. Next was a short trip to the mountains for a breath taking scenary and I got my revenge on big brother. >D I asked if it was cold while patting his should with my hand full of snow. He was like, "Basket," and I just snickered.
Dinner was after and boy, was it filling. Three eggs in one day. Chawanmushi for dinner and half boiled egg for breakfast and lunch. Headed back to the hotel, this time there wasn't any shops outside so we didn't go out. D: Time to hit the pillows, morning call at 530 Japan time.
P.D. I wrote 'aishiteru Kame<3' tonnes of times todasy on the window and 'Kame<3' on the cable car window. Kame was once again, written in Hiragana.
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Second day done, third one up next! Gosh, it's tiring.
Hokkaido, Japan. 15th December 2009; when I hear my favourite song[ 10:17 PM ]
I know where we belong.
♥Listening to: Fairytale, Alexander Rybak ♥Mood: busy ♥Location: in the hall, home alone
Today was our first day on the tour. The flight to Osaka was good. Thanks to Philip, I think I managed to get over the motion sickness. Surprisingly, the domestic flight was not too bad as well. The landing, though bumpy, was not as bad as the flight to Shanghai. The temperature in the morning was negative four degrees Celsius, gradually increasing as it got around noon.
The beer factory was our first stop, where we got to learn how beer is made, packed and in our hands. Since the eligible age for drinking here is 20, they offered apple and orange juice for those below 20. I picked apple of course, just love it so much. My family and I snagged a couple of food from the place(shhh!) and guess what I saw at the souvenir corner? POTATO-KUN! <3>
We headed to the hotel after that and it had a public bath, so all of us had to go in nude and all. The three of us were pretty embarrased at first, but we got past it soon after. My sister is so friggin' thin. ): I love how skinny her legs are and hate how disgustingly huge and ugly looking my legs are. Envy her for that. ): I got a little light headed after that, so I went back to the room which I shared with my brother. He too was slumped on the futonn, obviously feeling the same way as I am right now. Flipped through the channels and went down to have a delish dinner. Everyone was practically forcing me to eat! Well, just my family so that's everyone, right? Anywasy, it's either that or my stomach will growl with hunger 15 minutes later. The rice was good, but too filling.
We had a really long photo taking session later, while staying the the same pose for more than ten cameras. Oh, the smiling. My brother, sister, CK and I went to out to walk around the area and bought some snacks from Seven Eleven. Their faces lit up when I told them about the 100 yen shop and died down to the calm mask when I told them I had no idea where it was. Still can't find it though. :/
SNOW IS SO SOFT AND FLUFFY! 8D Hopefully it snows more so that we can have a snowball fight, build snowmen, etc. Hee. :D Big brother just made me milo. <3>
Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one To build me up and tear me down, Like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left Just left me cold and out of breath. I fell too far, was in way too deep. Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls, Dragged the memories down the hall, Packed your bags and walked away. There was nothing I could say. And when you slammed the front door shut, A lot of others opened up, So did my eyes so I could see That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. Well I'm putting my heart back together, 'Cause I got over you. Well I got over you. I got over you. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
With that aside, I got awesome news. Yan is sleeping over tonight! <3
Cheers, time for dinner.
P.s. I'll update about my trip to Hokkaido, Japan later.
♥Listening to: Everything, 4men. ♥Mood: excited ♥Location: in the hall
I'll be leaving for Hokkaido, Japan later tonight. To those who know me, we'll chat through Facebook.Using the computer is expensive, so I'll text y'all once I'm back. Will be gone from the 14th to the 20th(it's a night flight back home), see y'all on the 21st!
♥Listening to: Currents Convolusive, Pierce The Veil ♥Mood: Calm ♥Location: in the hall, home alone
OMGOSH, YAY! IPOD TOMORROW. MASSIVE TRANSFER OF SONGS TOMORROW.
Why tomorrow? 'Cause appa wants to play with the iPhone for a while.
"Better hide it from Clement first before handing it to him tomorrow."
How cute. Today was great, a jog in the afternoon, watched New Moon after with my brother. Once again, loads of scenes were missing from the book, and I'm going to put the Twilight saga into my phone just to look for the missing parts. The ending was weird. Well, it just sort of ended after "Will you marry me, Bella?"
Weird is weird.
Okay, Imma going to shower now. Going to get Copeland's songs after. (:
Well, I've been playing with colours today, so here's the outcome. The bling is so hard to remove, so I think I'll be bringing one colour, the base coast, the top coat, remover, some cotton and tooth picks over to Hokkaido, Japan. :D
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart. —Psalm 51:17
All nations have heroes, but Israel may be alone in making epic literature about its greatest hero’s failings (Ps. 51). This eloquent psalm shows that Israel ultimately remembered David more for his devotion to God than for his political achievements.
Step-by-step, the psalm takes the reader through the stages of repentance. It describes the constant mental replays, the gnawing guilt, the shame, and finally the hope of a new beginning that springs from true repentance.
In a remarkable way, Psalm 51 reveals the true nature of sin as a broken relationship with God. David cries out, “Against You, You only, have I sinned” (v.4). He sees that the sacrifices God wants are “a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart” (v.17). Those, David has.
In his prayer, David looks for possible good that might come out of his tragedy and sees a glimmer of light. Perhaps by reading this story of sin others might avoid the same pitfalls, or by reading his confession they might gain hope in forgiveness. David’s prayer is answered and becomes his greatest legacy as king. The best king of Israel has fallen the farthest. But neither he, nor anyone, can fall beyond the reach of God’s love and forgiveness. — Philip Yancey
How blest is he whose trespass Has freely been forgiven, Whose sin is wholly covered Before the sight of heaven. —Psalter
Repentance is the soil in which forgiveness flourishes.
I think I just found my favourite chapter. Psalm 51. It's what my heart has been screaming for a very long time. All of a sudden, halfway through reading the chapter, "I forgive you." suddenly popped into my head and at that moment I just wanted to breakdown. Even now, though I may not be crying physically, tears of joy are just flowing out of my soul. I feel...happy. The joy of knowing that you're forgiven, no matter what horrible things you have done is just awesome. Of course, do your best not to commit those mistakes again. I'll do my best to lead my life as how God wants me to. And honestly, putting God in the center of your life clears all doubts, everything seems so 'light'.
Lord, I pray that you'll teach me to be more understandable, to be more patient, to be more like you. Amen.
4 I prayed to the LORD my God and confessed: "O Lord, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love with all who love him and obey his commands, 5 we have sinned and done wrong. We have been wicked and have rebelled; we have turned away from your commands and laws. 6 We have not listened to your servants the prophets, who spoke in your name to our kings, our princes and our fathers, and to all the people of the land. -Daniel 9: 4-6
18 Again the one who looked like a man touched me and gave me strength. 19 "Do not be afraid, O man highly esteemed," he said. "Peace! Be strong now; be strong." -Daniel 10: 18
11Dear friend, do not imitate what is evil but what is good. Anyone who does what is good is from God. Anyone who does what is evil has not seen God. 12Demetrius is well spoken of by everyone—and even by the truth itself. We also speak well of him, and you know that our testimony is true. -3 John 1: 11
Psalm 51
For the director of music. A psalm of David. When the prophet Nathan came to him after David had committed adultery with Bathsheba.
1 Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight, so that you are proved right when you speak and justified when you judge.
5 Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
6 Surely you desire truth in the inner parts a]">[a] ; you teach b]">[b] me wisdom in the inmost place.
7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
9 Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity.
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will turn back to you.
14 Save me from bloodguilt, O God, the God who saves me, and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
15 O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
17 The sacrifices of God are c]">[c] a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.
18 In your good pleasure make Zion prosper; build up the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then there will be righteous sacrifices, whole burnt offerings to delight you; then bulls will be offered on your altar.
Footnotes:
Psalm 51:6 The meaning of the Hebrew for this phrase is uncertain.
♥Listening to: The tele. ♥Mood: Calm ♥Location: in the hall, home alone
Been working all day on it what not even a simple 'thank you'.
Been cutting, back aching, hand cramping and you have no idea how much it took for me to complete it.
Oh wow.
Am really tired now, and I find no joy in using the computer now, since I did what needed to do, there's nothing left. Random videos and Kame pictures don't interest me now, may be the pictures a little but I'd rather do my QT.
Hope to go out with Via soon, and omgosh, HOKKAIDO ON THE 14TH! :D
In Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore. —Psalm 16:11
Oswald Chambers once wrote: “It is not God’s promises we need, it is [God] Himself.”
At Christmastime we often say, “God’s presence is more important than presents.” But the amount of time and effort we spend on shopping for gifts may indicate otherwise.
In certain parts of the world, people give gifts on December 6. By doing so, they have the rest of the month to focus on Jesus and the wonder of His birth, God’s perfect gift to us.
When we say we want God’s presence more than presents from others, perhaps we’re being truthful. But how many of us can honestly say that we want God’s presence more than His presents?
Often we want gifts from God more than we want God Himself. We want health, wealth, knowledge, a better job, a better place to live. God may indeed want to give us these things, but we can’t have them apart from Him. As David said, “In Your presence is fullness of joy” (Ps. 16:11). Presents may make us happy for a time; earthly gifts from God may make us happy temporarily, but fullness of joy comes only when we remain in a right relationship with God.
So, what would Christmas be like if we truly celebrated God’s presence? — Julie Ackerman Link
Lord, we want to remember You and Your coming in special ways this Christmas. Give us creativity and thoughtfulness in our planning. Help us to focus on Your presence and not on what we hope to give or receive.
God’s presence with us is one of His greatest presents to us.
19We love because he first loved us. 20If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. 21And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother.
Anyways, just a short one. I'm getting a little hyper here. After the late night drama watching, I pulled myself off the bed at 145pm. At least it was better than the day before yesterday when I was being a total noise hater and refused to wake up. That and because there was a dream that I didn;t want to let go. So Kame, Jin, Koki and Ueda has appeared in my dreams already, so where's Taguchi and Nakamaru? :D
Anyhoo, today was a tag team with appa. It was a artsy day for the both of us. A real SHINee*gets shot for the pun* artsy day thanks to the amount of glitter that was used. Almost done with Sylvia's present, like finally. Hope there will be enough time for the rest fo the presents though. Twinie's one is already late. Way late that you don't want to know how late it is cause I'll feel extremely awful(which I already do) to even type it here.
My two favourite videos. <3 The second one is a link cause someone requested to disable the embedding.
These few days have been awesome even though I haven't been updating anywhere. No twitter, no Facebook, no Blogger, no Plurk, no Livejournal, no nothing cause I was busy attending Sara's sweet 16th party and doing up presents for my loves. One more for Halley to add in. Oh my. Loads of things to do. Anyways, before the party was shopping with umma. She bought this pair of knee length shorts from Fox for me, which is kind surprising cause she never gets me things from anywhere the moment I say "I want that." Other than food cause I get hungry easily like now. Amazing thing is, my parents didn't even say a word when I came home five minutes past midnight after the party. :D Other than that, I've been drama watching and catching up with Sylvia love. You have no idea how worried I became after she texted me saying how sad she was. Called her at the wrong time though. Heh. We chatted till two this morning and after texting a couple of people-I seem to be able to reply to messages only at night these days- I hit the pillows.
IRIS IS ON TONIGHT! My apologies for the random-ness. Which reminds me, I still have to watch the first few episode of Iris and add one more drama to my list, which makes it a total of 10 dramas to catch. How in the world am I suppose to squeeze in 10 dramas with the time I have now?
♥Listening to: Everything , 4men ♥Mood: tired ♥Location: in the hall
Head hurts, time to hit the pillows. Will be working on the presents tonight. Gosh, IRIS.
Rewinding[ 12:52 PM ]
a recorded tape.
After the tiring but refreshing hike at Bukit Timah, Wee Chong asked if I was free to watch a movie, but we had to gather people first. Best thing was, he was treating. :D After two hours of texting and calling, I only managed to drag Ben and Cheryl(Boey) along. Thing is, they were not 16 yet and neither do they look like one so we couldn't watch Case 39. Ninja Assassin is also out, cause it's M18. So, we decided to watch 2012, since the three haven't watched it yet. It wasn't too bad, I mean, I laughed and teared at the same parts. The 3D version might be coming out soon, I think. Cheryl and I shared the double combo meal(which was my lunch), and made so many comments about it. Gosh, she is a chatterbox. Being a chatterbox isn't all that bad, but it also means you hace to keep talking to her. In the end, Ben and Wee Chong were totally left out and the two of us just keep going, going, going. Especially Ben. My apologies to him. ):
I don't want to talk about what happened afetr the movie, but Cheryl, please don't do that ever again. It's not funny. You. Totally owe me one.
After having a late night doing some presents, I went for the dental appointment in the morning half awake. Dozed off a couple of times on the chair and slept in the car after. The rubber bands are now red and green, all in the name of Christmas. Been tuning into 172 ever since I got back and managed to catch Pops in Seoul! <3 Alrightie, today's another busy day of present making.
