The streets sparkle like silver
now that the rain has changed into snow
I could see a dazzling future the color of a dream
that Christmas Day
I looked at you and smiled
on that holy night,
yet your tears overflowed
"I'll love you forever..." So why?
Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I look up at the distant sky
Someone new is waiting for me,
but I still harbor those feelings that I can't shake
We used to laugh together back then;
we weren't afraid of anything
But I hurt your gentle spirit
that Christmas Day
Now I'm wandering aimlessly,
searching for those hopes and dreams
The sky I gaze up at
is too big for me to grasp
even if I were able to reach it So Why?
Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I'll take the unwavering feelings of that time
and go forth into a new tomorrow,
because we can't go back to that story
As I keep on walking, I can't help but wonder
as the snowflakes melt in my outstretched hand
if maybe someday we'll meet again
and finally be able to tell each other how we really feel
little miss.
Melina Eng, Lyna or Mel for short.
I breathed my first on 29th July 1993.
Some know me as Little Miss Random,
or the lil emo kid IMMA HAPPY GIRL RIGHT NOW!
Currently studying my forth year in CHIJ Secondary (Toa Payoh)
So here's my life, in bold, italics, and underline.
and she loves photography;
and she loves reading;
and she loves shopping;
and she loves exercising;
and she loves fishing;
and she loves doing her nails;
and she loves hanging out with her friends and family;
and she loves her friends and family;
but most of all, she loves God 'cause He is her mighty saviour :D
There are more to come, but almost all of them can be bought from Forever21 online.
If you get any of these for me anytime soon(cause some of them are final sales), I'll love you even more!
▪ Camera (Any suggestions?)
▪ New Phone(iphone 4)
▪ Headphones!(my earpieces are seriously dying)
▪ Belted Shoulder Bag
▪ Watch
▪ Belts of varying thickness
▪ Black and green jacket/hoodie pullover
▪ Painter's Skinny Jeans
▪ Gently Faded Skinny Jeans
▪ Creased and Frayed Skinny jeans
▪ Decorative Fishnets
▪ Heels
▪ Flats
▪ Put GOD first in my life
▪ Be the salt and the light of the world
▪ Do QT daily
▪ Play the keyboard better
▪ Learn how to play the awesomely rocking Bass and the totally slammin' drums
▪ Run every weekday and GET THOSE SKINNY LEGS ASAP
▪ Attend prayer meetings
▪ Meet my (RL)fandoms!
hmm. last day of the long waited fast to end june holiday.[ 6:42 PM ]
no, its not funny anymore. i used to thnk that one month of holiday would be fun and relaxing, but no. our teachers just had to pile homework on us. project, reports, written stuff. equations, formulas, symbols.
though i'm glad that i finally completed my chinese homework yesterday morning, at 2am. my brother, being him had to make sure i went to bed. he kept asking to to sleep, despite me telling him "almost done" or "just a little while longer" countless times.
:D I THANK GOD FOR SUCH A WONDERFUL BROTHER. :D
before that, i had this geog project, and kenna stayed with me till around 1+am untill i finally completed my 6th report. thanks na. =]
anyhoo, do pray for those who are dying to complete their homework on time. they really need it. i can bet you that at 1am, someone would still be awake, trying to finish up the homework.
well, worhip today was good. it has been a long time since i last felt so happy worshipping God. so, i would like to express my thanks to all the people who served today, even the projectionist who by the way did a brilliant job with the slides and the ushers who welcomed us with their oh so happy faces.
then there was kenna, zi highing again. :D MING HUI, YOU DID A GREAT JOB AS THE WORSHIP LEADER TODAY. PRAISE THE LORD! :D
the only thing was, i think the band was too power packed/ loud. it was as if they were on full blast through out the whole worship, and that kind of bothered me. also, the keyboard's a little too soft(soundman, LISTEN UP!). yeah. just a few things too take note of. :)
well, the sermon was about 'lets talk about s**'. s** being sex. ^^" wei feng did it in chinese so i kind of didn't really bothered to translate them onto the 'sermon notes' section of the bulletin.
then i had lunch, and went up to club house with elieen. though she had to leave at 2.43pm for the ex-co meeting at 2.45pm. i felt bored and decided to head home, only to find ABBY!!! XD so i went back tp church with her, thnking that it would be better for me to spend my last day of the holiday zi highing with her, than to stone in frotn of the com or my beloved ps2. :D and of course the other peeps who were there: ling, wei xiang, my bro, grace, and dawn. :D
we talked, played taboo, boggle and the piano. we took videos and random stuff. abby, na and i make a great team while playing the piano. haha.
BAH. I HAVE TO SEND MY PHONE FOR REPAIR. IT'S TOO SENSITIVE. VIRUS ALERT. >,<
well, i got to go, since school starts tomorrow i have to sleep early and wake up at 5.30am again. one more thing: MORNING RUNS TOMORROW! ALRIGHT MAN! XD
OHYA! before i go, here's one of the songs that we sang today during worship, completed with chords. :D
bah, i had to take out the cords cause it didn't come out right on blogger.>,< I DECIDED TO GO TO YOUTUBE AND GET THE VIDEO INSTEAD. ENJOY! :D
i know you can't see this. just in case you do, TITTLED::ALONE[ 10:00 PM ]
well, if you guys hadn't know any better, you would not have left me home alone. the thing about me is, i do quite a lot of thinking while i'm alone. no noise, no static, nothing. peace and quite and only the sound of cars driving past my block disturbs my trail of thought.
-if you guys really left me there to think and all,(depressed) you would find that i have a personal Counsellor following me around all day long.-
and guess what? i did most of my thinkings in the most unbelievable place of all. the bathroom(calling it 'toilet' would sound so weird right now).
today, i had MESSY G, which actually means MASS CG. creative name no? jacob led us through the whole thing. we played the 'masking tape' game, whereby you have to guess what's written on it by asking only 'yes' or 'no' questions. he made it on 'hard mode' just for us, since we knew the game so well.
i found mine very hard to guess, only realising that the i was actually wearing the answer, thanks to my awesome bro, clement. each 'yes' or 'no' question i asked became a blur right after i got the answer. i couldn't really focus on what i was. my bro and xue wei couldn't figure theirs out too.
in the end, jacob cahnged the game to some sort like, charrades or taboo, and not only did we managed to guess it correctly, WE DID IT IN RECORD TIME. xue wei was a shower cap, my bro was a photograph and i was a digital watch.
then we played caps ball and that was when i knew that i really sucked at it. no one threw me the ball. well, fine they did, but i messed it up. i threw too hard and the ball flew out. then there was a handicap thing. i was paired up with xin pei(XP) who kept asking me if i was alright. the guys were masked up too. the thing that made us LOL was that they were masked on their legs.
imagine if jacob used the green ultra sticky one as the first and only layer. the guys would so get a wax. especially chng.
then we had worship(heh, the phrase that popped up in my head immediately after typing this was and 'then there was evening, and there was morning' the next day. sound familiar?) which jacob led and chng was the guitarist. before that, he explained the meanings behind the games which really set me thinking.
it was about us being handicapped, whereby we would choose to have or want to have a perfect team of players. he then told us something about some church, where the people who you saw were they short and friendly kinds. once it was time for a cac caps ball event, it was a whole different picture. somehow the people seem taller and are more skilled than you ever thought them to be.
we would always want to send out our best players , to create this perfect picture. those who had the handicap rule on them, how did they felt? basically the ball flew to them less, although they still managed to find their place in the game. the ones who were in threes or masked by their legs were some sort of anchor or defence mechanism.
XP and i were actually the exact opposite( well, i was). we got more throws, we went all out to chase the ball.
then there was the masking tape. what he said really applied to me, actually it applied to everyone that was present. we kept asking questions to get to know more about ourselves, yet we only get answers that were redundant/of no use/not much help. he shared that he was like that too. we kept trying out new things, to really find out who we are the stick with it until we reach secondary school,weher we ask even more questions to find out who am i really am? yet, we always get less than satifactory answers.
then when he changed the game to charrades/ taboo like, we got the answers almost immediately. it means that we may not get the answers that we really want, but through the people we got to know in church, our cliques, our mates... and GOD they would guide us, and help us to really find out who we are.
we each have a special bond within our cg mates. an even more special bond than our other friends, although that doesn't give us the right to walk up to them and say, " hey, you're not my friend." or something like that. they are still our friends.
next was the enjoyable worship, and the clothes peg competition. i rushed out my peg, so it looked kinda not up to my standards. i painted it brown. and did some nice stuff with my awesome copic marker.
frankly speaking, i was feeling a little messed up, with questions popping into my head like, "why wasn't mine chosen?" sorta thing. i mean, i worked kinda hard for it, and yet, i wasn't one of the chosen ones. i know you guys are so thinking, "wth?!? it's only a damn clothes peg."
i know that too, but me being ME had to be unsatisfied with everything. i was angry( i think..as i can't seem to find any word to describe how i was feeling) witn jacob. and seeing that the ones that he chose were the ones that were brightly coloured. i was so annoyed( ah, i found a word!).
yeah, and that kind of bothered me for a while. it's good to get things off your chest.
after that i was doing my usual thing, taking photos. i got some pretty nice shots if you ask me. i'll put them up here later.
well, as i was saying way before the update and all on messy g... the thing that kept coming into my mind was what MATT, WHO WAS OUR SPEAKER FOR THE CAC CONNECT! CAMP said. do not try to impress others. was what he said. i tried to impress my parents and i tried to impress my friends. i wanted to be perfect in both my parent's and friend's eyes.
BUT DID I EVER THOUGHT OF BEING PERFECT IN GOD'S EYES? the answer was a straight out "NO". DID I PUT HIM FIRST IN MY LIFE, OR IN EVERYTHING THAT I DO? still a "no".
then my mind whirled around these two questions, and it suddenly led to why i came for this messy g. and during the prayer i felt so guilty. i came for this cause i had nothing better to do. i had actually completed the last of my homework, which was chinese 2am this morning. it was a day for me to slack in front of the computer, yet i came. i somehow thought that stoning in front of the com for hours was actually a bad idea. so i came. it was indeed a truly bad idea. stoning in front of the com i mean.
i felt guilty, when jacob was talking about the friends and all, the people who were not here, but what hit me the most was about the attendance. he asked how many percent of ym was here? we gave our answers and he told us that he himeself didn't have a clue.
and that for now, the attendance IS 100%. it was not about how many people came, but our attitude, our heart, on why we came. we came because we wanted to come. that hit the spot. i hadn't been going for ANY of the past cgs that they had.
BULLS EYE DUDE. i felt, as if the whole world was about to fall right on me, and i could do nothing about it. i felt helpless. i felt guilty. I WAS GUILTY. I AM GUILTY. these things just came at me like bullets from a machine gun. FAST AND DEADLY. so much that i noticed that tears came into my eyes. i mean i wasn't crying and all, and definitely not sobbing. but i just felt... i just felt..
*sigh*
and what jacob said had been on my mind ever since i got home.
i officially ban myself from the computer once school reopens.[ 6:09 PM ]
bleah.
yes i would go to such extremes to get what i want. once again, I OFFICIALLY BAN MYSELF FROM THE COM ONCE SCHOOL REOPENS. yeap. School maybe(don't hit me) fun at times, but it's getting a little scary for me. I finally got the highest percentage that i could ever dream of (still not enough) but now charlottel and i are back to the same position. She being 3rd and Me being Top. Well, I'm just so afraid that i would drop to 3rd and she'll be the TOP STUDENT OF YEAR 2008(NORMAL) again.
that bugs me a lot. then there's the sitch about Os. i maybe taking only two papers next year, but it's still scary. i mean, MATH. FOR GOODNESS SAKE. i need to get an A2 for math or i'll just die. plus, it's a very time consuming subject. THANK GOD( really, thank God!) my dad managed to persuade ben to be my tutor again. yeah! go dad!
then there's ENGLISH. man, i feel terrible just thinking about it. my MYs pulled my confidence level down to rock bottom for ENGLISH. bah. shall not think about it now.
OHYA. sec 5 = O levels year. the rest of the papers. i'm so freaked out for ss and CHINESE. >,< rah. and if i don't score well for Os, i can't get into CJC. bleah.
i couldn't breath properly just a while ago. F.R.E.A.K.Y.... i blame the vit. c. that i ate not too long ago. This wasn't the first time that it got stuck in my throat. Or so i thought it was.
it was so uncomfortable. bleah. i'm tagging at the cac ppeps blogs now. then i found a quiz. :D
You Are 93% Perfectionist
You're a total perfectionist. So go ahead and congratulate yourself on a "perfect" score.
The truth is, everyone is sick of living up to your standards. And you're probably even sick them yourself.
yeap. found it at leo's blog. XD bleah. i can't tag at emily's blog cause i'm not one of those "invited ones". >.> great, the vit c when down. feeling much better now. i kept saying to myself and to other people, " i have to chiong/do my chinese homework." and it's getting kind of annoying. I kept using it as an excuse, to avoid everything. just for the sake of using the com, or slacking. I mean, it's alright to slack once in a while, but not THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS MUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCH and i find that i've been doing that throughout this whole week. i'm getting sick of myself being like this.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
i know you guys can't see this. just incase, UPDATE: dad's birthday.[ 10:40 PM ]
just came back from my dad's birthday dinner at Holland Village , Crystal Jade. The food there was delicious, as usual. Ordered my favourite chicken rice again. My sister ask why do i keep eating chicken rice? You can find it anywhere. Well, it's about the quality of the chicken. Plus, the rice is not as oily. :D
The food was very good, BUT we ate too much. My mom has a 'elastic stomach' so after everything, she could still eat. My bro, Her and I felt that it was too much. There was CAKE too. She and I ordered dessert! It was so full. My guai ling gou had too much honey. My dad poured half of it into the bowl. AND THAT'S A LOT.
The cake was good, everything but the WHIP CREAM was good. Nice cheese cake with blueberry thing on top and some other fruits. Photos was a must. We took urm..a family photo of some sort? I'm about to print it out, then we'll frame it up. :D My family's still searching for a replacement family photo. :D
ANYONE WITH AB+ BLOOD TYPE, PLEASE CONTACT 97838531. PERSON IN NEED OF BLOOD URGENTLY. THANK YOU.
haha. you still can't see it. *evil laugh*[ 5:06 PM ]
haha. is it me, or does my com keep crapping up around this time?? links dont' work properly, pages load halfway. then it hangs for a while. rah. crapped up com. well, haha. i did the speed test thing. i feel damn slow i tell you. shannen types 63 words per min. and she thinks its slow. lol.
i'm slower you tot. anyways, today was a rather alright day. woke up late again, cause i slept at 2am. turned on the com after brunch. chatted with adrian and edwin. and i'm still talking to edwin. lol. met him during the camp. not the tp edwin. XD
i'm tired, so i do things in slow mo. or almost there. 4 mins till shower time. celebrating my dad's 46's birthday. today. *evil laugh* i revealed his age. XD
yawns. yeah times up, gotta go. yay i can wear my nice new dress again! XD CHEERS!
yeap. the outing was so fun. we ate...FAST FOOD. gosh i feel so guilty. i told myself that i wouldn't eat fast food this month, yet i still went to eat. pfft.
OHMYGOSH. THIS IS REALLY BAD. MY COM HAS NO MORE MEMORY TO STORE MY PRECIOUS PHOTOS. now what?
well, adrian suggests that i should get another hard disk. kendra said to store them in a CD, like what she did with hers. :D
all these are great suggestions, but the problem is that i have NO CDs and TO BUY A NEW HARD DISK I WOULD HAVE TO PESTER MY DAD, AND HE WOULD HAVE TO SPEND $$$ TO BUY IT. D: I've deleted some ugly/ unwanted photos. so i hope there's enough now.
okayokay, back to the outing. :D
well, yeah. i had this super huge burger that i so couldn't finish. i left like, 1/5 of it there. baah. i feel so bad wasting food. >,< so yeah. we went in and both su and jo were like, THE PANDA'S COMING THE PANDA'S COMING! then su said whenever she thinks that the panda's coming, it would be holding some microphone. lol.
yeah. the movie was awesome funny! and FUNNY!!!!! KUNG FU PANDA! XD then we were like wushi finger holdling people. lol. 'don't make me flex my pinkie!' XD
then there was this woman. haha ling was like, that LADY..LOL. everyone ended laughing at her after the funny part was over. lol.
so, we went to COTTON ON and looked at stuff. i saw this awesome looking grey top and nice accessories. i want :D oh and did i mention there was a SHADES section? kenna, ling, elieen and i started takling spastic photos. LOL. i was only in one of them(i looked so totally bimbo in that one XD) as i was their photographer for the day. :D so...here are the pics!!
HAHA, ADRIAN I'M PUTTING UP ALL OF THEM JUST FOR YOU! SINCE YOU REQUESTED FOR THEM LOL.
oh my, kenna!
this was the cinema thing. the seats are so comfortable man! not those typical ones you'd find.. :D
this was one of the walls. awesome-ness~
WHOOTS! COOL DAI LE! XD
oh my! spastic ling, as usual! XD i love going out with her, especiall taking photos of her! lol. adorable. :D
the bimbo girls. XD gosh i look so bimbo here. HOT PINK SHADES! XD
Hammie kenna. XD
HEY HEY HEY, WHERE'S SUGAR? haha, jkjk. here's elieen with her cool pair of shades. XD sweet and caring dey~
kennAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH! XD cool dai le. (again. XD)
this is ling again. she was trying to hold that spastic face but end up laughing few seconds after the shot. XD
oh noes! kenna! what happened? XD
look ate the signs peeps! GSS SALE STILL GOING ON!! XD 50% off, HURRAE!XD
the awesome-ness shades! XD
LING HUI! :D SMILE, YOU'RE ON CANDIT CAMERA! LOL. XD
yummy! fake bread. kennah thought it was real and went O.O when i squashed the bread thing. XD
formal...
informal, also know as SPASTIC! THE SEC 3-4 SUNDAY CLASS. YOU KNOW WE ROCK. :d
it still doesn't matter what i write here. XD[ 3:30 PM ]
haha, i missed those days when i didn't know what it means to say 'i love you' to a guy. just smiling. chit chat. blah. exchanging numbers as if it was some game. messaging constantly as if we were only friends. then everything changed. i broke many hearts and mine was broken too. heh.
i wonder. this is always what i always write about when i really think about my life. other than God. weird? i don't know. it's up to you to judge me. i don't care and i'm going up to get ready for the outing.
what i put here doesn't matter cause it doesn't how up. XD[ 2:48 PM ]
well, today is finally the day! SAY WHAT!?!? yes yes! today we're finally having the long waited sunday class outing!! XDD yeap. w're gonna have dinner and watch a movie. hopefully xue wei is able to make it. >,<
oh one more thing. DO PRAY FOR XUE WEI FOR HER ORGAN EXAM THING AND THAT SHE'LL NOT TIRE HERSELF OUT DURING FLAGDAY. XD
well, other than that, here's another piece of good news. :D (for me that is..) i finished half of my english homework! hurrah for me. the other half needs a partner and i'm thinking of cleris. yes her :D
well, i'm left with approximately 6mins till prepare myself for the outing. XD leaving at 4pm for dhoby ghaut mrt:DDD
HII!! My name is joe! XD kidding. here's joe's nick and i found it really awesome :D Mummies go 伍... Ohya, we love Cheesefries, life's like Jigsaw and it seems i-m-possible cos of Imba Spartans (:
here's a short and sweet summary all thanks to CHNG! XD
Wednesday: GREAT Thursday: GREATER Friday: GREATEST
-Jie ying: so if friday is like the greatest already, then what about saturday?-
Saturday: and everybody go "IMBA!" XD
haha. my group is called SPARTANS!!! We rock and you know it! XD members:
Lawrence (leader)
Norman Hiah<--- lol. zi high. hiah hiah! XD
Joe<--- haha, another one who loves zi high."upsize &0.50. GSS sale, discount 30%" XD
Sheryl<-- super cute
Caleb<--- quiet but so SO cuteXD and is always the one doing prayer! XD
Germaine<--- best bud! Plus, she's super tall(170cm). taller than jolene! Coolest person on earth.
Gabrielle<--- supportive best bud! so funny i tell you. :D
Jing Wen<---- best bud + IJ-IAN :D HOTTEST PERSON ON HEARTH. XD ( ij-ians are sadi to have four lungs= louder cheers)
Issac<--- one damn cool person who so knows how to play the piano/keyboard! GRADE 7!
Melina<---Your's truly. :D (right in the middle XD)
'LOL, germaine, the coolest person on earth look like luiza. Yes, im not kidding. That kuku women bit me):' from jinwen's blog. lol.
I'll just do a quick summary + picking out the funniest or most memorable thing that happened on that particular day.(ahaha, don't count too much on it. XD) camp started on 11th june. :D my bro and i left together for newton mrt. our bags were super huge!! me, being a little er...not as strong, couldn't carry my bag, so my bro helped me. we ended up taking a cab there.
wei xiang went too!! XDD then there were the sec threes. unfortunately xue wei and alicia couldn't make it. SAD. I KNOW. na then agreed to trade bags for a while XD i carried hers and she carried mine( at least my centre of gravity isn't so off now ) all the way till our bunks. :D
got there and played some ice breaker games. basically, we have to listen out for germaine's voice. NORMAN HIAH, BEING NORMAN HIAH had to high a little. it was round two of the game where the path taken was like the F1 thing. he got lost at some turn thing, so he ended up walking around the spot as people 'pushed' him here and there. XD it was so funny. too bad i could't video it down. XD
yeap. then did more intro and games(WHACKO AND DOUBLE WHACKO), came up with the name and all. Sheryl kept trying to talk to caleb. haha. she failed. XDDD okay lah, caleb is kind of quiet. he mixes with the spartan guys. >.>
oh, we the SPARTANS had to do dinner shift. :D there was so much vegge left over. lol. the last few plates had double scoops of vegge. XD
MATT, the speaker for this connect! camp:D he's one damn cool person. learnt loads through his sermons. :D
Oh, btw we slept in classrooms and the floor was so hard. and cold. and dusty. >,< me being bony here and there, had difficulty sleeping. slept at 2+am, woke up at 4+am, stone for exactly an hour till 5+am. then i think i fell asleep till 7+am and then we really had to wake up at 7.30am.
well, day two was the typical fun day for camps. guess what? WATER GAMES!! okay fine, before that, there was this MAI TU LIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~(which means don't delay) game where we had to drag the word 'liao' for as long as we can. the main aim was to break the lock that held 16 water guns. the code was in three diff envelope thing, each one with a number.
i ran FOUR TIMES man. XD we had to drag the 'liao', get the water gun and run back.
we got the water guns, and now we had to bring back the tabel. damn tiring! XD Then there was this blow the ping pong ball thing. it was so hard, but so fun. we were competing against the orange group(who completed it three times.).
oh and that SHAUN TAN, he kept spraying me with his big water gun. i was soaked. XD so i went around huggin dry people, like jolene, constance and bonnie. bonnie was so adorable.
ME: *sneaks from behind and clings on to her back which was rather dry* BONNIE: ah! hello Mel! *smiles and continues talking to people* ME: *snickers* ~~after quite some time~~ BONNIE: OH! YOU ARE WET! HAHA. ME: *is still clinging on to her back*
i'd let go afterwards..when we were doing the yum seng thing :D
then there was group dinner, where i ate my first pepper lunch! XD it was so nice. i tried the beef, and it was kinda hard. i recommend chicken :D
oh then there was supper, whcih was delicious! the funny thing was.. JOE! haha, you know the usual supper thing? dip biscuits into milo? anyways, joe dipped his biscuit in too long and it became soggy. so much that it dropped into the milo. in the end, his milo turned into some cereal thing. lol.
then we took loads of pictures. haha here's two pics of my group. :D okay, this is the formal one :D
yeah! this is the informal photo. now look to the far right and see the act cute norman. lol. yay spartans!! :D
oh! the third day, was basically...the activities. games and all. i would love to play caps ball, i just don't know how. >,< so i went to play cranium! it was so fun that we had to play twice:D then during lights off time, ABIGAIL, GERMAINE, FIONA, GABRIELLE AND I were zi highiny. talking something about teachers. XDD oh yeah! then germaine and jingwen were jumping in their sleeping bags again. so cute. :D
you should have seen abby and i. we were laughing so hard that we were literally rolling on the floor. (i was hugging my piggy while rolling. XD)then around 2+am, germaine, gabby and i went down to look for m,y water bottle. we found it within a minute. lol.
then!! wei feng being wei feng asked if we wanted to play the find the watter bottle game with my water bottle. lol. afetr that we played some card game(the other groups were on the stage playing eitehr indian poker or tai di XD) until 3+am. damn tired. >,<
the last day was the holy communion. :d and then picture taking time. wahaha. as i've said countless time(not really, just a lot of times.) that i can't upload it anywhere but flickr. so go to leonard's facebook and look for the photos there :D
yeah guys. i'm so terribly sorry that i can't send you guys the camp photos. i'm tried countless methods. lol. i uploaded most on flickr though, and leonard chng took many shots too. check it out at facebook. :D
well, i do have the photos. camp photos i mean. but i can't seem to upload it anywhere. i've tried sending via email, but my com just can't seem to attach it as a photo, and if i attach it as a file, it would take damn long, and i have to mass send it a lot of times, since the max memory space it 10mb.
i tried facebook, but i can't upload cause i don't have the active x whatever, plus i'm kind of banned from downloading stuff. i'm trying flickr, but it's taking so long plus it's way past my bedtime. lol.
well, i apologise to everybody who have been waiting for the photos. you guys have to wait a little longer, no doubt about it. really sorry. >,<
okay. i was damn pissed about something...but i forgot what it is. heh heh. ^^" i guess, typing really helps me to calm down. sometimes, having a bad memory has its advantages too. not being able to remember the bad times. :)
well, i'm running out of time for homework. my parents have telling me to finish up or else you'll rush everything out on the 22nd(sunday) again. that sucks. everytime i rush something, the quality goes down. you have no idea how i dislike myself for doing that. i need to hand up proper work, it being 100%. not just the ah-hack-it kind of work.
well, i've been thinking quite a lot these days, and i'm messing up my whole life. haha. well, i've been doing qt half heartly too, and that's kinda bad. i'm just gonna leave everything up to Him, and pray about it. i'll see the light at the end of the tunnle with His help for sure.
yup. i'm going for the CAC camp from the 11th to the 14th of june. <-----CHEALSEA'S BIRTHDAY :D
so, i won't be blogging for the next four days or so. haha, i'm actually a little worried. i mean, this is the first time i went to such a camp. a lot of people are going, and we have to bunk with people that we don't know. though i'm sure that i'll make new friends. still...
i can't help but feeling uneasy. all the 'what if's are popping into my head. heh. well, it's still going to be a fun filled camp, no doubt about it. like what er....some ymer said, "next time when we have a CAC event thing, you'll be like, hey! i know you!" :D
well, got to go now. meeting the other ymers at 12.30pm. boo hoo, i can't have breakfast with the sec threes. >,<
it's official. i'm going to change my blogskin. i know, i've changed it quite a couple of times. still, i'm not satisfied.
i found one super kawaii one not too long ago. don't worry, it's not pink. i don't intend to have a totally pink blogskin anytime soon, unless i really like it. if anyone of you people out there have any recommendations, do leave it at the tagboard. it would be highly apprciated~
the fonts now are super crapped up. no offence.
Monday, June 9, 2008
relax. NOT.[ 8:10 PM ]
i can finally say confidently that i completed my geog project. I was very much afraid that i would not be able to finish it in time as i had to do seven reports for seven articles. each reports are about 400 words.
for the past few weeks, i've been sleeping at the wee hours of the morning. missing out on my eight hours of sleep ain't good yo! haha. even though i completed this geog project, i'm still left with three more projects to go. chinese, english and SS. if you know me well enough, you should know that i don't score as well for chinese as compared to my other subjects.
i had a good chat with adeline yesterday. Well, i would just like to say a big thanks, cause what she said really helped.
i shouldn't worry about things like that now. i should be leading a wonderful life. with many great friends surrounding you, keeping you safe, guiding you, giving advice, who wouldn't?
i'll just take life as it goes. what i see is different from what God sees. for all you know, He had already planned out my whole life. everything happens for a reason, even if we don't know what the reason is. i'm just very thankful that i got to know God at a young age.
i would also like to express my thanks to all who have helped me. heh. i've said this countless times, still, i can't thank you guys enough.
yeah. you heard it. i went to treetop walk today. though, i didn't cross it cause it was after five. heh heh ^^||
Well, even so, we burned tonnes of calories! yay! haha, not only that, i to to know both Kenna and Xue Wei better! :DDD Xue wei is so fun to talk to...haha. and just so you know. SHE IS NOT SHORT. WHOEVER SAYS THAT SHE'S SHORT SHALL SUFFER THE WRATH OF MELINA. MUAHAHAHAA~ XD yay, Xue Wei all the way :D
well, at first i spoke to both Jesse and Ningdi. Ningdi is a NBC(newzealand born chinese). She speaks very good english. (YES I CAN STILL UNDERSTAND HER FULLY) Not only that, she's a fast speaker but..a tad bit too soft. XD Still, a very awesome girl to talk to! ****SHE WATCHES ANIME**** XD hurrah!
Jesse is a quiet little girl who is sooooooo TALL. like really. She's even taller than jolene( who happens to be the tallest girl in ym ) heh heh. you've met your match To! Step down and make way for Jesse! XDDDDDDD
haha. yeah. I took loads of random shots. i have no idea how much, but you can roughly guess it. Before i went to church, i still had 64mb in my memory card. now i'm left with 16mb. LOL.
Fwee~ anyways, that's not the poinT !! haha, kidding. :D the walk to the hsbc treetop walk was so far. but so fun. :D i was taking random/ candit shots here and there!! then...i was walking with xue wei. we were walking pretty fast as compared to the others behind, but a tad bit slower-okay fine, much slower- than the people in front.
We got to this one way path thing( OBS road XD). no one in sight. luckily, we were talking. if we weren't, it would be so freaky. XD still walking. we though we were lost. though it was kind of impossible, cause it's a one way path. still no one in sight. so xue wei and i decided to call kenna. unfortunately, her hp did not have any reception, but mine did(yay for sony erricson). i called kenna. XD turns out that she was with the behind people XD.
walked more. THEN WE GOT TO A T-JUNCTION. *dramatic music plays* how how how?!?! thank God(really, thank GOD!!!) that there were people there. (yes, we finally saw humans!!! :DD) So, we asked them for directions, and finally saw the road! haha~
yeap. then came the really STEEP SLOPE. (it scared the hell out of big suzanne and jing yi XD) we decided to run(LOL.) and after we did, haha, real tired. we had to stop for a breather in the middle of the steep slope. XD
-almost there...hsbc treetop walk here we come!-
yay yay! yes, almost there. as soon as we got to the ranger station for a pit stop( haha, sounds like The Amazing Race~), we saw a sign that said, " please to not climb up after 4.45pm. the treetop walk closes at 5pm sharp." then we were like, oh noes. how how? still, we carried on. XD
we got up there and...yeah. it was closed. i mean, it's only 6 minutes past 5pm. nande? we saw monkeys up there XD (one of them was peeing. lol.) then xue wei cracked a joke. what if the drops of rain were actually monkey pee? LOL. we laughed like crazy man. :D
walked back to the ranger station to wait for the 'missing' people *ahem ahemNINGDIahem ahem*. it turns out that some managed to cross the treetop walk thing! :D yay for them. took random shots, and walked a long way to upper thomson rd. haha. while i was waiting for my dad to come, i chatted with kenna and xue wei.. AND TOOK RANDOM PHOTOS AGAIN!!! :D heeeee~
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yay! starting from the left: kenna, me and xue wei~ :D
urm. will post more next time. Currently doing my 6th report on the 6th article that i found. >,< cheers!
why am i still...like that? it was over. a long time ago. this shouldn't happen. no it shouldn't. but it did. i'm living in the past. i just can't forget. i keep looking..at his blog...seeing some of us. he never really said that it was his birthday throughout the three years. haha. i wonder. why do i take notice of these things? i really don't know myself anymore. somehow i just bombarded myself with questions that i do not have the answers to. well. everything is different now. there isn't an us anymore. it's just you and me. seperate lives.
i sprained my ankle yesterday... it has been a long time since i sprained it. it hurts a little now. haha, its treetop walk day tomorrow.. ym core group and etc are going.
XUE WEI. YOU MUST GO. lol. it was kind of like an unofficial promise. hope both our ankles will be alright tomorrow. well, i'm still working on my geog project. current mood: nuetral. notice that there aren't any :D other than this. haha. well, i wasted a few hours of my life talking to my cr bro, but it was kinda worth it. it has been a loooong time since i had such a nice chat with him. always made me smile~
the there was michelle, who is my look alike and BFF. since we couldn't see each other, we chatted on cr. haha. so adorable. i hope that i'm able to go out with her during the december hols. looking forward to it.
well, do keep me in your prayers okay.
ALRIGHT. NOW I'M PISSED. i kept everything in place for once. did the dishes, dispose of rubbish properly. and my mom kept finding some thing wrong that i did to scold me. i mean, say it once, it's enough. say it twice, i'll just !@#?!?*@ at you. i hate naggings. *is chilling* haha alright. id better stop slacking my hols off and start working on the projects.
yeah, i'm still up doing my geog report. *yawn* Four more to go~~ hmm. i did one in an hour. i guess i should stop for today. getting kind of tired. Plus i have to wake up early to have breakfast somewhere with my parents, then my dad will be fetching me to church to do up the noticeboard( doreen and i ) and she'll teach me how to work the phtocopier and stuff.
Woah. Luckily i didn't go for the library shift. i mean, how was i suppose to know that i was going to be so tired after the mural thing? (16 cip hours. all mine. muahahaaa~) yeah. i went home and slacked a bit in front of the com... ate my dinner and watched the ben 10 movie.
man, it was super awesome! XDD something to relax my mind on after a long day's work. the only thing was... IT WASN'T RELAXING. i mean, i do love the movie, but there were just too many advertisements that i wanted to destroy the whole damn tv. of course i didn't! XDD yeah, my head was throbing after the movie.
THEY PLAYED THE SAME ADVERTISEMENTS IN THE SAME ORDER EVERYTIME. DO YOU KNOW HOW ANNOYING IT IS? Not only that, the time between each advertisement was so short. around 10 to 20 mins. They kept cutting at the exciting part of the climax. rah.
well, it was a nice show~ gwen got some practice and the omnitrix didn't self destruct(which could rip apart the entire universe). AND AND! he got new aliens!! :DDD lol.
okay okay. well, for the mural painting, we did the touch ups, the flowers and the chinese characters. oh, and lemme tell you about lunch. heee~~ jia yu and i was left with about 45 mins to eat. we walked up and down trying to find a proper foodcourt but to no avail( hint hint: the food there are very costly, plus, there's no proper foodcourt). So we ended up eating at macs, again. XDDD
haha, i should stop eating macs. too unhealthy. :D
yeap, jia yu and i took the mrt back to toa payoh together. She walked to her grandma'shouse, while i walked home. (seriously, even i was suprised that i had enough energy to walk back home!! XDD ). and here i am, sitting in front ofthe com, blggign and yawning. *yawn*
haha, take care people! Goodnight, sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite! :D God bless, and CHEERS! XDD
haha, my mom called me. you know what? she flared up at me caused she herself got my number wrongly and i didn't get the message regarding my dinner. She the last number was suppose to be '3', but instead she somehow pressed '4'. XDDDD lol. i still have no idea how she got that wrong! XDDD
fwee~ well, today we, the awesome AA members completed our mural!! three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for AA members! hip hip, hurray! hip hip, hurray! HIP HIP, HURRAY!! :D
well, gtg. cheers! will continue laterrr~
Thursday, June 5, 2008
rah.[ 11:07 PM ]
Veoh has some problems. or is it just my compuer? XD well, looks like i have to continue watching CCS next time, and load each episode one by one. >.> pffft. it's going to take so long. That's why i shall multi-task! :DD
yeap yeap. i'm still here. well, haha if you know me at crunchyroll, it may seem that i'm a little emo. haha. it's unbelivably true. XDD
haha. what's done is done. the most important thing is to learn my lesson, and KEEP SMILING. well, i may learn the lesson, but i could never smile as much. I did be some little emo kid, sitting somewhere at a corner. sometimes it's so bad that i decide to wear totally black.
haha, that's why, i try to look at the brighter side of life, and that's an improvement... as compared to quite a couple of years back. haha, naw, i'm fine people. i just...didn't have much of a happy childhood. i mean, 3 years are kind of a lot, no?
shall stop here. i don't want to rake up the past again. it's too painful.
silly me! XDD i forgot that i plugged out the internet wire thing, so CCS couldn't finish buffering! XDDD haha, yeap, i'm watching it now. Heh heh~ While i wait for it to finish buffering, let me tell you about my day! :D
heee~~ Yeap, well, i got there asap thanks to my daddy, and he was nice enough (he's always nice! :D) to fetch both my friend, Jia Yu and I to AMK to do some mural painting! :)
heh heh... It's rather fun actually. looking back, those eight hours flew by in a blink of an eye~ Though i was getting kind of lethargic during the last few hours...( The rocks that i was outlining somehow looked like food to me. as in, shapes of food. XDD ) >,< STILL, we all managed to complete almost the whole mural!
Hurray to us AA members! You guys did such an awesome job! :D Though this wouldn't be possible without teamwork. We had to make sure that the rocks are more or less the same, and that the whole stream was able to connect! Lol, and guessed what? We had the upper, middle and lower courses!! XDDD
Oh, and even though the other group's mural design was a little different, it looked beautiful nonetheless~ :D Superb job with the rainbow guys!
Oh, and i would really like to thank Jeannette ( almost forgot how to spell her name~ XD) and her dear mother ( and of course her siblings :D ) ! without their help, we wouldn't be able to beautify the place with our oh-so-awesome painting skillZ :D and gain hell lot of cip hours~ (16 hours to be exact. 9am to 5pm, two days :DD )
heh heh. Plus, for the first time in my, urm life.. I ONLY GOT PAINT ON MY HANDS!!! :D Even my banner painting shirt doesn't have a single drop of paint from today!! HEEEEee~
well, not to forget about Him... I THANK GOD FOR PROVIDING US WITH SUCH BEAUTIFUL WEATHER, AND ALSO FOR SUCH A WONDERFUL TIME WHERE WE ALL GOT TO BOND TOGETHER! not to forget, THE SAFETY BACK HOME :DD
hey, what's the problem? i thought you would understand me. but NO, you just had to say "what, you crazy ah?!"
hey, i've been sitting infront of this damn com, working on my geog project. yeah sure i wasted about 2 hours doing my personal stuff and all, but hey, i was distracted. what do you expect from me? i've been your daughter for 15 years. you should know something about me by now. Other than i like to play ps2 games, or photography.
i mean, like duh, even my friends know that. You can be a pain in the rear sometimes. seven reports, two domn. each over 400 words. That's hell lot of words man. So what do i get in return? you saying that i'm crazy.
argh. you know what? next time, i'll just sit there and ignore you. even if you scold beat whatever, i don't care. you just don't understand me. and i don't unedrstand how could you not have done so. i'll just ignore the hell out of you.
boy, you're so lucky that i calm down after some typing. damn you all. i'm typing, doesn't mean i'm chatting with my lovable friends. you com idiot.
yes, i'm still doing my geog project. many many more to go. >,< jia you Melina!!!
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Freaked out.[ 11:25 PM ]
yes. stupid bugs. today was alright. i had Arts Alive! meeting. Played a little God of war 2 when i came back home.<----Seriously awesome game. GAMERS!! GET IT NOW!
okay, anyways, lets fast forward to after dinner. As always dinner was great! :D what happened AFTER DINNER wasn't so great.
now, imagine this:
you were happily eating a fruit. You grab the next one you see in the plastic bag and peel off the skin. You got the first half of the skin thing off. You peel off some more to get a bigger bite. Suddenly ANTS start to crawl out from the fruit thing. ANTS, and TONES OF IT.
i mean what would be your reaction? That was what happened to me. Ants. They crawled on my hand. Litlle black icky stuff scrawling, bringing with them whatever bacteria they have and rubbing them off my skin. They're moving fast...
I screamed. My first reaction was to get that fruit thing away from me as far as possible. I threw it and there it landed, on the table. My hands, those icky black ants. They're still there, making their way up higher and higher.
Thankfully my mom sweeped them off my arm/hand in time. Tears. I was crying. No, not crying, i was sobbing. my hands were trembling. I'm afraid. my mom well, she did what she could, i got a glass of water. while i drank she patted my back, and assured me that everything was alright now.
Guess what my dad said? if you aren't afraid of all the stuff in the GOW 2 game, why are you afraid of ants?!?!
FIRSTLY... Its a 2D game!! sheesh!
SECONDLY... This game is not scary. IT'S GORY. The game that scares me a little is diablo 2.XD
THIRDLY... I like gory games. Especially the GOW series.:DD
