Dive Into The Heart

The streets sparkle like silver
now that the rain has changed into snow
I could see a dazzling future the color of a dream
that Christmas Day

I looked at you and smiled
on that holy night,
yet your tears overflowed
"I'll love you forever..." So why?

Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I look up at the distant sky
Someone new is waiting for me,
but I still harbor those feelings that I can't shake

We used to laugh together back then;
we weren't afraid of anything

But I hurt your gentle spirit
that Christmas Day
Now I'm wandering aimlessly,
searching for those hopes and dreams

The sky I gaze up at
is too big for me to grasp
even if I were able to reach it So Why?

Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I'll take the unwavering feelings of that time
and go forth into a new tomorrow,
because we can't go back to that story

As I keep on walking, I can't help but wonder
as the snowflakes melt in my outstretched hand
if maybe someday we'll meet again
and finally be able to tell each other how we really feel

Melina Eng, Lyna or Mel for short.
I breathed my first on 29th July 1993.
Some know me as Little Miss Random,
or the lil emo kid IMMA HAPPY GIRL RIGHT NOW!
Currently studying my forth year in CHIJ Secondary (Toa Payoh)

So here's my life, in bold, italics, and underline.

and she loves photography;
and she loves reading;
and she loves shopping;
and she loves exercising;
and she loves fishing;
and she loves doing her nails;
and she loves hanging out with her friends and family;
and she loves her friends and family;
but most of all, she loves God 'cause He is her mighty saviour :D

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There are more to come, but almost all of them can be bought from Forever21 online.
If you get any of these for me anytime soon(cause some of them are final sales), I'll love you even more!

▪ Camera (Any suggestions?)
▪ New Phone(iphone 4)
▪ Headphones!(my earpieces are seriously dying)
▪ Belted Shoulder Bag
▪ Watch
▪ Belts of varying thickness
▪ Black and green jacket/hoodie pullover
▪ Painter's Skinny Jeans
▪ Gently Faded Skinny Jeans
▪ Creased and Frayed Skinny jeans
▪ Decorative Fishnets
▪ Heels
▪ Flats

▪ Put GOD first in my life
▪ Be the salt and the light of the world
▪ Do QT daily
▪ Play the keyboard better
▪ Learn how to play the awesomely rocking Bass and the totally slammin' drums
▪ Run every weekday and GET THOSE SKINNY LEGS ASAP
▪ Attend prayer meetings
▪ Meet my (RL)fandoms!

Expanding my army.

crunchyroll ♦ shattered-wings
deviantart ♦ twilight-reflection
facebook ♦ ribbonized
lastfm ♦ twoanyone
livejournal ♦ loveproof_not
twitter ♦ _MMHN
plurk ♦ ribbonized

♥Listening to: Koe wo Kikasete, Big bang
♥Mood: okay
♥Location: in the hall

Labels: heartbreaker, little miss random strikes again., mood swings, past, sorry

i thought this was
a nice way to relax
but too much chillaxing...
needs some reflecting.

<3

i visited my old blog. i read the most recent post, and i found this :)
i did some editing though. heh heh.

I'm tired of life
i just want to die.
It feels so empty.
that i just want to cry.

where are the colours?
i cannot see.
black and white
is what we'll be.

i look over there
she smiled at me
i just sat right there
for she can never set me free

i feel very warm
and very giddy too
i ask myself, "should i study?
"heck yes, or i'll fail, but am i a fool?

i've been studying like crap
and there's 7 papers to go
there's much left to do
i wish i could go with the flow

don't look back now
they're all laughing
waiting for your all grades
to start falling

my parents
yes them
have high expectations
there are still many things that i need to cram

i'd better start working
should i even care?
even if i die
who would even dare

*sighs, breaks into a smile*

i do know one thing
yes, just one
that our Father in Heaven
is the awesome one

i bet He'd help me
i would bet with all i have
that He loves me so
even if they don't care

In John 3:16, its is said right there
"Whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life"
I believe in Him, i really do
but am i just another hypocrite?

Would you run, i ask
would I run?
what would you do
if i brought a gun?

and pointed it in your face
on a sunday morning in church
are you gonna run
do you have this urge?

before you do, hear what i say
will you take a bullet for Jesus Christ?
would you run? would they run?
if they do, hypocrites they are!

now i shall end this
i feel much better
all i needed was
to type some letters

off to study
yes i will
And i'll make my parents proud!
and never NEVER will i fail.

heh. it's like some self encouragement. XD off, too work now, never will i fail!
:DD

Labels: past