The Way To Dawn.

Dive Into The Heart

The streets sparkle like silver
now that the rain has changed into snow
I could see a dazzling future the color of a dream
that Christmas Day

I looked at you and smiled
on that holy night,
yet your tears overflowed
"I'll love you forever..." So why?

Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I look up at the distant sky
Someone new is waiting for me,
but I still harbor those feelings that I can't shake

We used to laugh together back then;
we weren't afraid of anything

But I hurt your gentle spirit
that Christmas Day
Now I'm wandering aimlessly,
searching for those hopes and dreams

The sky I gaze up at
is too big for me to grasp
even if I were able to reach it So Why?

Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I'll take the unwavering feelings of that time
and go forth into a new tomorrow,
because we can't go back to that story

As I keep on walking, I can't help but wonder
as the snowflakes melt in my outstretched hand
if maybe someday we'll meet again
and finally be able to tell each other how we really feel

Melina Eng, Lyna or Mel for short.
I breathed my first on 29th July 1993.
Some know me as Little Miss Random,
or the ~~lil emo kid~~ IMMA HAPPY GIRL RIGHT NOW!
Currently studying my forth year in CHIJ Secondary (Toa Payoh)

So here's my life, in bold, italics, and underline.

and she loves photography;
and she loves reading;
and she loves shopping;
and she loves exercising;
and she loves fishing;
and she loves doing her nails;
and she loves hanging out with her friends and family;
and she loves her friends and family;
but most of all, she loves God 'cause He is her mighty saviour :D

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There are more to come, but almost all of them can be bought from Forever21 online.
If you get any of these for me anytime soon(cause some of them are final sales), I'll love you even more!

▪ Camera (Any suggestions?)
▪ New Phone(iphone 4)
▪ Headphones!(my earpieces are seriously dying)
▪ Belted Shoulder Bag
▪ Watch
▪ Belts of varying thickness
▪ Black and green jacket/hoodie pullover
▪ Painter's Skinny Jeans
▪ Gently Faded Skinny Jeans
▪ Creased and Frayed Skinny jeans
▪ Decorative Fishnets
▪ Heels
▪ Flats

▪ Put GOD first in my life
▪ Be the salt and the light of the world
▪ Do QT daily
▪ Play the keyboard better
▪ Learn how to play the awesomely rocking Bass and the totally slammin' drums
▪ Run every weekday and GET THOSE SKINNY LEGS ASAP
▪ Attend prayer meetings
▪ Meet my (RL)fandoms!

Expanding my army.

crunchyroll ♦ shattered-wings
deviantart ♦ twilight-reflection
facebook ♦ ribbonized
lastfm ♦ twoanyone
livejournal ♦ loveproof_not
twitter ♦ _MMHN
plurk ♦ ribbonized

It;s funny cause [ 5:23 PM ]

Listening to: Ichibu to Zenbu, B'z
Mood: Sad, and I'll be depressed if I keep thinking about it.
Location: in the hall, home alone.

you only know a little of me.

Time to listen to Ichibu to Zenbu again, in an attempt to cheer myself up. Going to see the doctor now.

The one who's left out, out of the five.

I'll be changing my header and blog song soon enough, after next Wednesday when everything's over. Honestly, can someone just stop me from thinking so much? Taking note of small little details that may seem nothing to others, but the world to me. Interpreting them is what makes things bad. It's not even raining yet and I'm already so under the weather.

Cheers, another time then.

Labels: depressed.

Sad. [ 9:49 PM ]

ignorance is bliss.

So many things happened during such a short period of time, and I guess I'm the one who's to blame after all. If only those words stay hidden, things would still be the same. Everyone would be happy. A insignificant spec in their lives, yes I am, aren't I?

Blame me, not her.

Hate me if you must, but at least make her happy.

Labels: depressed.

Fairies. [ 4:25 PM ]

This is the sweetest thing anyone said about him, and I thank that person for that.

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Many people, when they saw Ueda for the first time, thought he was strange. He doesn't say much, wears some odd clothes, is adorned with spikes and seems to be lost in another world. He goes through some different stages: sometimes he'll be very serious and hard-working, giving his all to the performances he does. Other times, he'll seem sullen and unattentive, and his work looks half-hearted. These are not just the mood-swings of some celebrity. Ueda is a complicated person, and those who can't see his good side are just not looking closely enough.

Ueda has gone through some changes since joining KAT-TUN. He used to be quite depressive and had a bleak outlook on the future. He was concerned that he didn't have much of place in the band - not because of any ego, just because he wanted to belong. People often asked him what his role was in the band, what he planned to be in the future, and what he would bring to KAT-TUN. This troubled him, because he didn't know.

As fans, we don't know for sure what went on during that time, but we saw the transformation. It seemed like Kamenashi Kazuya took Ueda under his wing, befriended him, and tried his best to protect him. It didn't take long for Ueda to start coming out of his shell, and soon he was an optimistic, important member of the group. Now he has the brightest smile in the whole of the Johnny's and a renewed confidence.

His band-mates all agree that he is an interesting character, and many describe him as "pure". He has also been described as the "cool" member, but this isn't the typical kind of "cool". Ueda is not a huge follower of fashion, he isn't pretentious or "tough", doesn't try to fit in with the crowd, and has a sensitivity that most "cool" people would look down on. Ueda has a style and smoothness that cannot be summed up in words. He is unique, and that is what his fans truly admire about him.

Most people don't have the imagination to see fairies, as Ueda does. Likewise, many people aren't able to appreciate the true greatness of Ueda. So, open your minds, take a closer look at the little Elf-like artist, and maybe, someday you, too, will see fairies...

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Reading this some how brightened up my mood. (:

Labels: the bright side of life~

Getting a little cold down here, yes? [ 3:10 PM ]

or is it just my imagination?

I don't know. Things been pretty cold between the two of us. We patched up, we laughed, and it was almost back to the good old days. Almost. After that one week, everything seems to be different. As if I'm an(to put it in a really horrible uncaring way, even though I know you care) insignificant speck in your life. I may not be as high tension as them but I blame the weather, the distance(can you sense it?), the stress from the amount of workload we got. You may be the one with full of smiles, laughter and all that happiness ~~crap~~, but in my eyes, I see a person as fragile as glass. If anything were to to happen, you might just crack, break and shatter into pieces and I wouldn't know what to do with that, what to think with that, how to live with that if I was the one who caused it. In all, I wouldn't know how to well, it's pretty difficult to put how I feel in words, honest. So, am I forced to take the path of just standing by the side, watching you? Wanting to show concern, wanting to make you happy, always but never be able to do it. It is a cowardly path, but this is all...I can do. I don't know. If we get too close, they talk. If we are too far, they suspect that something is up and they talk more. You have been one of the greatest friend I ever had and yet, I don't know what to feel now.

There has just been too many things going on, too much to think about, too much to process. There is a chance where you might see this, there is a chance that you won't. If you happen to stumble upon it, then just do what you need to do.

The rain in the morning didn't make things any better either.

Labels: sorry

Still on hiatus. [ 4:40 PM ]

Starting to feel the coldness again.

Listening to: Baby Baby, Big Bang
Location: In the hall, home alone(the computer was shift out of the store room cause it was just too stuffy in there and the oxygen supply ain't very good either.)
Mood: Okay

Still on hiatus. Usually I would update on my LJ, but it's just not loading at all which is just so annoying. Anyways, today was bot too bad. I was almost late for school today cause apparently the vibrations my my phone didn't wake me up, so appa came in at 630 and found me sleeping like a pig. O:

English was fun. :D Correction, English remedial with Ms Y is fun. ;D She made the three of us laugh so much, like for every single question. Can't wait for the extra periods next week. One day, the three of us shall drag Four Five to our English class. (:

She gave us a comprehension to do, and checked the answers with us at 225. When she came back she saw us chatting as if we had finished the questions a long time ago and asked in a trying-to-be-serious tone if she gave us too much time and Tiffany and I were like no and all, laughing while saying it. He expression and tone is just something that can make you laugh. A lot.

The vocab part was hilarious. We were all saying how we would get it all wrong and Ms Y kept saying how 'confident' we were with our answers. Each time she called us to answer, she would do it in a booming voice that left Cleris and I stunned for a moment. After a while, it had no effect on me. :D Cleris was still getting shocked and all. Gosh, you should have seen her face. It was priceless!

We were going on trying to define 'monotonous'. We knew the meaning, just that we can't seem to put the words on paper. Am I making sense at all? So I said 'lifeless', Tiffany said 'in a single tone' and Cleris's answer kept us laughing for quite a while, even though we said that we wouldn't laugh. Sorry, love but it was just that funny. 'No feeling'. HAHAH. There was also 'bear', in which Tiffany said "a soft, fluffy animal". Get it, get it? :D Bear as in the animal bear but it was suppose to be 'support', not that 'bear'.

Okay, time to get started on Math and Chinese and OMGOSH, ART.

Cheers, busy busy

Labels: Masquerade.