results. failed yo.
[ 3:10 PM ]
I looked up to the sky and saw clouds, not those white cotton candy-like puffy clouds, but those dark grey clouds. As f it was some warning.
I knew, that something bad was going to happen today.
Today was the checking of scripts. Once again, I was right. Though to blame God would be the easy way out, but that would be ridiculous. I blame no one else but myself.
I brought this upon myself.
I have to suffer the consequences.
My results are pretty bad. A pattern, you see? The people who did rather well, or did a fantastic job for mid years had not so pretty grades for End of years. Looks like I did burn out. I am satisfied with my English, though I
could have done better. I barely scrapped passed a B4. After combining it with mid years, I only managed a pathetic 61. An improvement from last time
but still...Humanities were the worst. Never did I expect myself to pass
on the dot for Social Studies and fail Geography. I dislike Social Studies and
LOVE Geography. Surprisingly, I got 15/25 for my SEQ, although I could have gotten a few more marks if I finished the second part of the last question. SBQ was alright I guess. 10/25. A pass, which is good, since I wrote some crap here and there.
Really, I never expected this. Reading my book was the only way to stop me from bursting into tears. My hands were trembling and my lips were quivering. A few more words from Chelsea and you would see a waterfall. I practically enclosed myself in this invisible box. Trying desperately to block out all the noise and stuff.
As for Chinese, I almost passed. I just need 0.25 marks to pass. I totally screwed up my compo. I almost spazzed out when I saw my marks.
*sigh*
Looks like I failed. I failed to get my 5 'A's and failed to prove the graph wrong.
It may not be the end of the world, but it feels like it. Gosh, I feel real awful now. I've never failed anything else but my Chinese. *sobs* Nande? Doshite? Wae yo?
Am I destined to follow in my brother's foot steps?------------------------------------------------------
Now I have to break it to Joey that I can't go to the Kpop concert and fan meeting. Not only that, I'll be missing my class party. Ice skating will be later so its alright. Oh wells, you win some you lose some.
DANG. I
hate myself.
Labels: depressed., emo