[ 7:36 PM ]
Honestly speaking, I couldn't really worship the Lord today.
All the excitement seems to be affecting me, yet, it doesn't. I'm officially Holiday deprived. I'm unable to go out unless it's with my church friends. My computer found the right time to break down.
I'm just glad hat I have my PS2 and my books. :D GOW 2 totally rocks. Come on, I know what yall are thinking. How can such an innocent looking girl have such a mad love for all things gory? Well, just so you know, I'm highly influenced.
...BACK TO WORSHIP...
During praise and worship, many things kept running through my mind. All those questions just kept popping up, to the point that I'd actually build an invisible barrier around me. To shut out all that may distract me from my trail of thought. I had not been reflecting much lately, with all the exam stress. QT seemed like another lost piece of the puzzle to heaven that I'm trying so hard to complete. my bible was no where to be found, so I just left home with a bible-less bag.
For once, it felt light. It's like us Christians. I mean, it s indeed not easy to be one. With the ten commandments as our guide/rule book in life. Breaking one would mean breaking all. The cross may sometimes be too heavy for us to carry, to finish this race. We would often find ways to make the load lighter. I remember during one of the sermons there was this video that really touched me.
A video of this little stick person, dragging the heavy cross that was on his shoulders. Winter passed, so did spring, summer and autumn. He was exhausted, so he decided to cut a little piece of the cross away. Soon, this became a habit. Then it came to point of time where there was this cliff. The gap between this stick person and the other side was almost the length of the cross. The other stick people had no difficulty in crossing cliff.
However, that little stick man found out that his cross although may be light, but it was short. So he just stood there and wept. Just then, a hand came down, the hand of God. He gave the stick man a new cross, so that He was able to cross the cliff and continue his journey.
Our God is an awesome God.
*sigh*
I felt really disconnected with not only God, but with everyone else.
PRAY. That's what I'll do.Pray. Trust in God.Don't ever doubt Him...
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