Dive Into The Heart

The streets sparkle like silver
now that the rain has changed into snow
I could see a dazzling future the color of a dream
that Christmas Day

I looked at you and smiled
on that holy night,
yet your tears overflowed
"I'll love you forever..." So why?

Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I look up at the distant sky
Someone new is waiting for me,
but I still harbor those feelings that I can't shake

We used to laugh together back then;
we weren't afraid of anything

But I hurt your gentle spirit
that Christmas Day
Now I'm wandering aimlessly,
searching for those hopes and dreams

The sky I gaze up at
is too big for me to grasp
even if I were able to reach it So Why?

Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I'll take the unwavering feelings of that time
and go forth into a new tomorrow,
because we can't go back to that story

As I keep on walking, I can't help but wonder
as the snowflakes melt in my outstretched hand
if maybe someday we'll meet again
and finally be able to tell each other how we really feel

Melina Eng, Lyna or Mel for short.
I breathed my first on 29th July 1993.
Some know me as Little Miss Random,
or the lil emo kid IMMA HAPPY GIRL RIGHT NOW!
Currently studying my forth year in CHIJ Secondary (Toa Payoh)

So here's my life, in bold, italics, and underline.

and she loves photography;
and she loves reading;
and she loves shopping;
and she loves exercising;
and she loves fishing;
and she loves doing her nails;
and she loves hanging out with her friends and family;
and she loves her friends and family;
but most of all, she loves God 'cause He is her mighty saviour :D

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There are more to come, but almost all of them can be bought from Forever21 online.
If you get any of these for me anytime soon(cause some of them are final sales), I'll love you even more!

▪ Camera (Any suggestions?)
▪ New Phone(iphone 4)
▪ Headphones!(my earpieces are seriously dying)
▪ Belted Shoulder Bag
▪ Watch
▪ Belts of varying thickness
▪ Black and green jacket/hoodie pullover
▪ Painter's Skinny Jeans
▪ Gently Faded Skinny Jeans
▪ Creased and Frayed Skinny jeans
▪ Decorative Fishnets
▪ Heels
▪ Flats

▪ Put GOD first in my life
▪ Be the salt and the light of the world
▪ Do QT daily
▪ Play the keyboard better
▪ Learn how to play the awesomely rocking Bass and the totally slammin' drums
▪ Run every weekday and GET THOSE SKINNY LEGS ASAP
▪ Attend prayer meetings
▪ Meet my (RL)fandoms!

Expanding my army.

crunchyroll ♦ shattered-wings
deviantart ♦ twilight-reflection
facebook ♦ ribbonized
lastfm ♦ twoanyone
livejournal ♦ loveproof_not
twitter ♦ _MMHN
plurk ♦ ribbonized

Gosh, it was like hell today.

Though I would like to thank God for providing me with peace in my mind.

Though the SS paper went rather well, the PoA was not as 'OHWOW' as i though it would be.



It sucked. It TOTALLY sucked.

I couldn't balance the balance sheet, only to find out that I used the 'closing stock' twice, and left out the 'opening stock'.



AND AND! The gross profit and net profit was like BLEAH.

I seriously think that I am gonna fail..

But why?

Why must it be this way.

why?



Well. *sighs*

Just a short rant today.

Heading off for tuition now.



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Labels: rant

yeah, I'm blogging in school.

hush now. yea. i feel kinda guilty that i'm using the com instead of studying.
Oh God, HELP ME.

I've been out of touch lately. Though I got the urge to study, after see my sister studying like hell. I really hope that she's alright.

someday, i'm gonna be as smart as her.
Well, someday. XD

hmm. browsing stuff and dA now. people there sure are awesome...

well, cya later people.
study
browsing.

which one will take over me??

Labels: update

My SS teacher was furious.
SS paper is coming, but we aren't giving it our best.
I noticed something too. if i had written/explained/described more about the given factor, could have gotten a awesome beautiful 9/12 .

Would ya look at that. 9/12. now THAT'S high. I'm going to prove to my parents, classmates, siblings and my ss teacher that I CAN and I WILL do well for SS.

Okay, enough about me ranting.I had Art and HHF today. My, isn't that so totally awesome?
WHATCHA LOOKING AT? I love to exercise and draw.
You got a problem with that?

Anyway, I spent like three to four lessons doing Art today.
First two was before recess, an the other lesson(s) was after recess.
The form teacher of the class that i had English in, took over the Engslihs lesson to do ..
urm..STUFF.
So, yeah. I'm gonna have two whole lessons to do Art tomorrow, cause i have two whole lessons of English.

Okay okay.
As mentioned in my previous post (the poem), I'm gonna study.
Never will i fail!!

Oh and if you see me online, at most it would be an hour or so. If an hour has passed, and i'm still online, do double click and remind me that i HAVE to study.
shortest time ever online would be today, about 30 minutes.



See ya! May God bless you with a wonderful day ahead! XD

Labels: update

I'm tired of life
i just want to die.
It feels so empty.
that i just want to cry.

where are the colours?
i cannot see.
black and white
is what we'll be.

i look over there
she smiled at me
i just sat right there
as if our eyes never meet

i feel very warm
and very giddy
i ask myself, "should i study?"
heck yes, or i'll fail, but do i care?

i've been studying like crap
and there's 7 papers to go
there's much left to do
i wish i could go with the flow

don't look back now
they're all laughing
waiting for your all grades
to start falling

my parents
yes them
have high expectations
there are just too many things, that i need to cram

i'd better start working
should i even care?
even if i die
who would even care

-sighs, breaks into a smile-

i do know one thing
yes, just one
that our Father in Heaven
is the awesome one

i bet He'd help me
i would bet with all i have
that He loves me so
even if they don't care

In John 3:16, its is said right there
"Whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life"
I believe in Him, i really do
but am i just another hypocrite?

Would you run, i ask
would I run?
what would you do
if i brought a gun?

and pointed it in your face
on a sunday in church
would you run?
out of this chruch

before you do, hear what i say
will you take a bullet for Jesus Christ?
would you run? would they run?
if they do, hypocrites they are!

now i end this
i feel much better
all i needed was
to type some letters

off to study
yes i will
And i'll make my parents proud!
and never NEVER will i fail.

Labels: poem

yeah. thanks Shannen.
man i feel like a idiot who doesn't know what's what with her blog.
anyways, i'm gonna fiddle around. lets see what i can find out.


Okay.
Am i seriously overdoing the 'rose' theme?
Well, I got bored, okay?

the thing is, i really like this blog for the layout and all. With the pink and etc. But i do love the other blog too. It was a gift from one of my bestest friends. You know?

so, as long as SOMEONE WOULD BE KIND ENOUGH TO TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE CODE FOR THE TAGBOARD, THEN I'M HAPPY.

Oh, and the links too.


Yeah. i love pink.
anyhoo, i just moved from http://oblivion-blade.blogspot.com to here! :D
Now i need someone to help me with the tagboard.
I got the code and stuff, but i'm not sure where to put it.
help ANYONE??