The streets sparkle like silver
now that the rain has changed into snow
I could see a dazzling future the color of a dream
that Christmas Day
I looked at you and smiled
on that holy night,
yet your tears overflowed
"I'll love you forever..." So why?
Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I look up at the distant sky
Someone new is waiting for me,
but I still harbor those feelings that I can't shake
We used to laugh together back then;
we weren't afraid of anything
But I hurt your gentle spirit
that Christmas Day
Now I'm wandering aimlessly,
searching for those hopes and dreams
The sky I gaze up at
is too big for me to grasp
even if I were able to reach it So Why?
Now the dancing snow is starting to disappear
I'll take the unwavering feelings of that time
and go forth into a new tomorrow,
because we can't go back to that story
As I keep on walking, I can't help but wonder
as the snowflakes melt in my outstretched hand
if maybe someday we'll meet again
and finally be able to tell each other how we really feel
little miss.
Melina Eng, Lyna or Mel for short.
I breathed my first on 29th July 1993.
Some know me as Little Miss Random,
or the lil emo kid IMMA HAPPY GIRL RIGHT NOW!
Currently studying my forth year in CHIJ Secondary (Toa Payoh)
So here's my life, in bold, italics, and underline.
and she loves photography;
and she loves reading;
and she loves shopping;
and she loves exercising;
and she loves fishing;
and she loves doing her nails;
and she loves hanging out with her friends and family;
and she loves her friends and family;
but most of all, she loves God 'cause He is her mighty saviour :D
There are more to come, but almost all of them can be bought from Forever21 online.
If you get any of these for me anytime soon(cause some of them are final sales), I'll love you even more!
▪ Camera (Any suggestions?)
▪ New Phone(iphone 4)
▪ Headphones!(my earpieces are seriously dying)
▪ Belted Shoulder Bag
▪ Watch
▪ Belts of varying thickness
▪ Black and green jacket/hoodie pullover
▪ Painter's Skinny Jeans
▪ Gently Faded Skinny Jeans
▪ Creased and Frayed Skinny jeans
▪ Decorative Fishnets
▪ Heels
▪ Flats
▪ Put GOD first in my life
▪ Be the salt and the light of the world
▪ Do QT daily
▪ Play the keyboard better
▪ Learn how to play the awesomely rocking Bass and the totally slammin' drums
▪ Run every weekday and GET THOSE SKINNY LEGS ASAP
▪ Attend prayer meetings
▪ Meet my (RL)fandoms!
Not. I'm not going to run away. I'm going to face my problems head on.
After seeing what a mess I've become lately, it's time to change for the better. I'm going to finish this exam and celebrate to the best of my ability while waiting for the results to come. Hopefully it won't turn out as bad as I think it would be. Only three different outcomes I guess.
SMILE. CRY. STONE.
You won't see me here until the 12th of May. Goodbye world. Goodbye life.
P.S. KAMENASHI isLOVEEE.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
ah.[ 5:09 PM ]
Either I'm hyperventilating or something's wrong. I find it hard...to breath.
[Edit]
It was the hyperventilating after all. I hyperventilate easily. Who knew? Ah, here it comes again. The only thing I'm doing now is blogging and listening to Lips for the who knows what time today. Can't somebody save me from this madness so that I can get back to being normal again?
MSN is getting on my nerves. the convo window refuses to change colours. Plus, my Kame background disappeared.
My magical fingers.[ 11:09 PM ]
I fixed the blog up all by myself. How awesome can I get? HAHAHA. Kidding. I owe it to this blogskin maker. Sure, I did some changes to the background and picture. Other than that, it's more or less her.
D: This is the third time this week that I didn't sleep. Surprisingly, there aren't any eye bags! ;D
I. MISS. MY. BEEEED~.
Badly. I have about an hour to finish Art, an hour to REWRITE the situational that disappeared somehow. I handed it up for sure, but it was late. Yes, that was my fault but it should be in some other pile, no? It took me a lot of time to actually write up a decent piece of situational and now it mysteriously disappears. Oh the joy.
Once that's done, I have about one hour or so to study for Chinese oral. Chinese is scaring me out of my wits. 'O' Levels are coming and I hardly passed any of the practice papers.
Good news is, that I watched 6/20 of KAT-TUN's Queen of Pirates tour and tomorrow, I might be able to catch a movie with the churchies.
Cheers, gonna drop a prayer request at the YM blog and then it's time to get arty.
Oh yes. This time it's not Dong Bang related, it's KAT-TUN related. I practically spent most of my time hyperventilating in school today. ALL THANKS TO THE TOTALLY AWESOME CHARLOTTE.
She with some other peeps from my clique are fans of the Japanese boy band, KAT-TUN. So, Charlotte and I were watching some KAT-TUN videos after school to past the time. She knew that I was a fan of Kame(aka Kamenashi) and took this time to show me videos with him in it. Here's one of them:
The translations are never accurate. ):
Charlotte loves to see my reaction when Kame does things like this. Anything from me, like a squeal, scream, blush, etc. You get the idea. You should have seen the look on her face yo, that evil smirk.
Still high over Kame. ;D Still hyperventilating. I doubt my heart can take too much of this. If this keeps up, I'll faint, seriously.
-edit-
I found the QoP video with Kame. Kame. KAME...! Oh, just see it for yourself. ;D
Friday, April 17, 2009
Hidden[ 6:03 PM ]
Listen to the blog song. Can you find the hidden meaning? If you really can't find it then you are just as slow as me. Hint: Chorus
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Oh yes.[ 4:03 AM ]
I'm still wide awake at this ungodly hour. And I am glad that i'm more or less 3/4 through the book. It's like 300 pages in 5 hours, meaning I read 60 pages in an hour and one page in a minute. Cool no?
Finally I can get started on my homework until five. After which I'll sleep till 8.30. Unfortunately, appa won't be able to fetch me to tuition later in the day as it starts slightly later than usual. Meaning that I must either complete or stop doing my homework by five, sleep and wake up exactly at 8.30. This is going to be tough 'cause my appa or umma usually wake me if if I had a late night(which is almost every night).
Not only that, it will be rather intensive. Ben is going to teach Redox but I have absolutely no clue what that chapter is all about. Same goes for the previous lesson but that was be cause I was late for the first 45 minutes. So, there's a high chance that I'll stone or nothing would enter my head. HELP! D:
Oh well, whatever the matter is, I'm just going to pray about it and hope it turns out well.
Cheers, time to do some Math.
---EDIT, 4.25am--- Looks like my umma just ruined my planes for homework. ): Waking up at 7.30am then.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Joke of the day.[ 11:54 PM ]
My friend told me sometime back that my hotmail sounded emo. It was meant to be insulting(it's a long story. Will tell y'all readers out there when I have the time or if I can even remember it) not emo. Many people have different perspective on things and I always thought that my hotmail was very insulting.
Then, my other friend said that it was neither emo or insulting. It was very magical in a way. Kind of reminded me of that new Korean drama Jaejoong is acting in, Heaven's Postman. I have no clue whatsoever if that drama has been released but I do hope it is. Even so, the examination period is nearing and slacking would be at the bottom of my to do list.
However, being a Twilight fan and after stopping by at Popular to kill sometime, I realized that I have yet read the fourth and last book of the series. Guess what? I found the soft copy online. *Throws confetti* After who knows how long I took, and the many pages and links I clicked on, I finally found the soft copy of it. So, 'completing Breaking Dawn' is more or less at the top of my list and I really need to finish it before it eats into anymore of my time.
Really, I'd slap myself so hard if I were to do oh-so-horribly for my Mid Years. It's time to mug and mug I must. Trying to finish at least half of the book or more by 3. Feel free to tag if you want a copy of the whole series. Waiting for the price to drop is just too long and the suspense would have killed y'all by then.
Oh, and the long waited YM Easter event, The Dilemma of Lavida Da Visa is tommo- oh, it's today! *Throws even more confetti* The YMers have done a great job-a whopping 49 people are coming for the event! Ain't that amazing? Praise the Lord yo. I'm extremely excited about this event. nd now the bad news is...I need time for homework and revision.
If only there was some kind of gadget to stop time in its tracks. What a wonderful thing it would be. Unlimited time. (:
I'm back here for official business. Currently my class is doing a debate on one of the Geography topics: Genetically Modified Food, also known as GM Food. The ten of us are FOR the GM food while the remaining 11 are against. Sure, there are a lot of negative comments about GM food but I bet my team is able to do a good job out of it despite the shortage of points. Since this is only our second debate we had so far, I am worried about the outcome but I am also very excited for the debate.
Other than that, Art is the next big thing for more than half the class as there are two designs due on our chosen topic soon and I have yet settled on a topic. I'm stuck between Glass Containers and Marine Life. Glass Containers was my previous topic and I can hardly do much with the sketches I made but the thought of doing two designs on the seven deadly sins really interests me. To me, Marine Life would be a great topic for fashion design. With all the wonderful and magnificent creatures out there, the possibilities are endless.
And it all comes down to what ideas one has for the topic. Here's something I found very intriguing when browsing through the many deviations on Seven Deadly Sins to get some inspiration. I think I just found it. Thanks to GreyHawk12345 and Dragon-Knight333 for much help.
The Seven Deadly Sins
Pride
You notice nothing, where only the best matters Watch as your life swings past you, laugh as it scatters Notice no beauty in anything, only your own greed For you will slip into hell, where all of your kind will bleed
Avarice/Greed
You always want more, money is all you are All the times you fight for fame, your just adding another scar Like humans are here, just to tend to your every need For you will slip into hell, where all of your kind will bleed
Envy
Constantly see others better, no more then Perverted Love Like your waiting to die, like they will let you above Like your forever waiting, you'll never precede For you will slip into hell, where all of your kind will bleed
Wrath/Anger
Living insane, unable to reason and smile You think physical abuse is needed, you think its worthwhile You see humans as nothing, only to mislead For you will slip into hell, where all of your kind will bleed
Lust
Females to you are nothing, just for Perverted Love Like they're here for the taking, just here to shove You think they're here for abuse, like to your sick shit they have agreed For you will slip into hell, where all of your kind will bleed
Gluttony
You always want more, you never appreciate anything Like there's always better, you never see the pain it can bring You want nothing but the best, you'd never dare to recede For you will slip into hell, where all of your kind will bleed
Sloth
You always delay on life, just to get what you want Pushing off all your duties, your lifes just a meaningless flaunt Just to trick and steal, off other lifes you feed For you will slip into hell, where all of your kind will bleed
Take a look outside Take a scent of the sweet calm air Or open a window and forget your dispare See life as a gift, instead of a curse Feel the love that we have been given Feel it everyday Be the one to change someones day Push aside the pain, push aside the dismay See this life as a blessing Love for all it is, don't let it dwindle away
Taken from http://greyhawk12345.deviantart.com/art/Seven-Deadly-Sins-18245597 'Easily one of my worst poems.' says he.
